Countdown...

We are Planning , and super planning for our trip to ........ ? ( soo i will disclose ). I think that as a mom it's an experience so awesome to plan a trip that can  be be full of memories and thoughts. I am a travel junkie, but since having my kids I had to hold back a bit since they were to small. There are people who dream about having they perfect home, or career, I dream about traveling the world. Obviously it takes  a lot of dedication because as a women we want it to be perfect.  So this trip is on a countdown basis, and we are so looking forward to it.

31/31

"thinkers.simple"

things, and more things.

"i aint got no crystal ball"

sublime

Lately:  I've been watching a lot HLN news on the J. Arias trial

Obsessing:. Over BATES MOTEL, THE NHL PLAYOFFS KINGS, RED SOX BASEBALL, and EUROPEAN-AMERICA SOCCER.

Can't get enough:. Instagramming ( i think it's a minor addiction)

Drinking :. A lot of Mamma CHIA SEED , AND KOMBUCHA

What I need to do more of is : YOGA

Listening to : BOB MARLEY   (lots of love in his music)

New Project : School

More of: Schooling and Reading a lot more to my boys

A must:  Some new books ( i love the written word)

WANTING TO DO : buy A CANVAS AND OIL PAINT

Coming up: My Anniversary

Looking forward too: Our trip out (SB)

that sums it up.

Total Diss: GYM speaking

I recently (when I say recently i meant this morning )went to enroll at a gym, some little location by my house called FITNESS 19. it's a little spot around here that is mostly inland base, i think every city has there thing .(so to speak_)

I had been really stoked about getting back into the grove of things and why not, i thought, it's small and really cheap, five bucks a month I mean that's beyond a great deal. Plus, I had a coupon , why not, who doesn't enjoy a good bargain. So i get ready, prepare ,my gym bag and out the door I go. I am pumped , thinking OK what machine will i work on for the next couple of minutes, blah , blah , blah. All mind gibberish. And so I arrive to my destination, i see a lot of cars  and the atmosphere feels calm. AT this time the guy is waiting for me , he's all smiles, and quite talkative and ask me if I want to see the gym or sign up instead. What, of course I wanna see the place and see if I like it then Ill decide whether or not I can go for it. He then starts rambling on about all the  machines , weights, etc. Then he points at the lockers, their right in the outer area of the gym, so basically everyone can see what you put in the locker. I don't really like that , and then the changing area is a big closet door.Literally , wow I thought that's different. And I had mention to him that I had kids and he said that they have a kids station , but never showed it to me.

 As you can see there are a lot of things off, and this dude seems to just be in a rush and sign me up.(commission, i am thinking)

He pulls out the pricing book, and guess what it's  cheap a month with a lock in fee of 100 dollars , and monthly fees are 19. I immediately declined gave him my reasons, and bluntly told him that it's way to expensive for such a tiny tiny gym, and the lockers, , the changing area. With all that said I got up said thank you , and he was butt hurt. Gave me a dirty look and slammed his pricing book.

Wow! as I walked out of the gym, really i can't believe how sensitive people can be when they don't get their way. I had never encountered someone like this in a long time. I can tell you that I am so disappointed and I can't ever go back there.

I can really see how many business lure you in and want to chew you out for a couple bucks, and if you refuse , the treat us differently. I guess it's true what they say , never judge a book by its cover.

xo-yess

28/31

                                                         "random moments.boys."

Orion-barely waking up
Haven- making spoon music

I am LAcking DEDICATION

i AM SO INCONSISTENT , THESE PAST COUPLE OF DAYS. Wanna know why . I misplaced my Laptop, talk about getting older right? Well anyways I am back on the road and about to do a lot more show and tell versus writing, except for this very moment.

on another note.
Oh my , I can't keep myself on track, it's like I am here one minute forget then bam! I am there the next. Why am I talking about this , to remind myself to to be this way. Even though I am a vegetarian , I haven't been in great touch with yoga.  According to a lot of people , most yogis are vegans and a strongly dedicated. I have come to a conclusion that maybe being a vegan is not going to be my first  choice just yet. I lack self control, when it comes to food. Actually a certain kind of food "cheese". Being Mexican doesn't always come easy, especially when a lot of foods or plates  acquire cheese.  I am feeling like a sucker, but things will come together I hope. I am lacking motivation, don't k now why...

falling short  (exact remark, running in my head)

I think this can be a reminder to myself , so every time I come back to blog  it will haunt me to fight and take care of myself .



This is my last hurrah.... till we meet again who ever reads this ..

" i guess we all have those moments in life"

xo-yess

simple point.

I know that I wrote a blog entry about being so busy and what not, and yeah I still am, but with more calmness and sublty.

Okay , I've settled my  moving situation , ugh finally right. After much thought and debate we aren't moving .yeeeeeeeeh! We eventually will be back at the whole moving idea next year. As for now we can sit back and relax just a little.

In all fairness it was a mutual decision.

Today I will be doing two things , the gym and visiting a record store called red planet records I am stoked .
This whole gym thing had been on my mind for a while, and I thought I was  going to have a gym partner, but she flaked out , oh well , I am rolling solo.

It's suppose to be a really cheap place, I just hope it's great. That's that .

Haven is starting preschool, I just think that it's going to be awesome for him or at least before he goes into kinder.
I have been so MIA from my blog , I just realized but this is really a place for my scattered thoughts and endless photography/my bad .

Yeah that's a mini, fast wrap about whats been going in my life lately, I lack a bit of sense making but I like to get to the point BAMMMMM!

YOUTH : MONDAY MUSIC.CLASSIC

IN THE MIDIST OF IT ALL, THE SONG IS SOO BADASS!

20/31

"different day.growing up.brothers"

Busy

It's been an adventure, and a roller coaster ride this past weekend.  We went apartment hunting again, and man did we discover the ups and downs of renting.  California is ridiculously expensive, like really why? and then it hits me because it's Cali. This economy sucks our state is broke and yet they manage to up our rents and the pricing.  This has become a journey , I've discovered the good the bad and the ugly and really all I want is too make the right choice so that way i won't want to move again. I think it's not the right time to move back to LONG BEACH, so I just have to deal with where I live now. I am okay with that in some way but I do miss my family dearly.

Our journey ended in the forest , and we are really thinking about moving there so fingers crossed ....

I know it's a little short . Happy Monday . I got a ton of research to do ...

Mothers Day Weekend

              This weekend was something else, a little bittersweet if you ask me . Since Alex works during the weekend we kinda celebrated on Friday. I say kinda because it wasn't what I thought would happen. Well, when he woke up , we got ready and took off to this natural store , and when we got their it had closed early so I guess he was out of ideas what too cook for me (since I am vegetarian he says it's hard). Then we ended up at the  thrift store, so as part of our little trip we took a stroll to Goodwill  and found some gems (ill make a special post for that later). Bought vinyls and that was that.
We drove to the mall , and man was that the hardest part of my day . My son wasn't a happy camper(to begin with)as we walked around my son was , screaming in the mall, crying non stop , i tried to just make the best of it but; he wouldn't budge, it was  impossible in addition to everyone just staring and whispering among themselves (and it was a full house in that place). So after a half an hour after being their and walking around the mall with my screaming child we decided that we just had to leave because he just wasn't happy. ( in my head i was so out of words and kind of sad) but in the end it was like what can I do he is a kid. Obviously he has no idea what mothers day is exactly and It's just not that time for him to know . As we headed home , I was disappointed and just wanted  the day to end and let it be that .  Alex eventually went out bought pizza and got me a vegetarian subway, and of course surprised me with some gorgeous flowers  and a very thoughtful card.. and that was my mothers day pre-celebration.


Then my Friday ended.

Sunday afternoon I get a call from my sister , asking me what I was doing and I had been somewhat cleaning and cooking .
And she hung up, seconds later she calls back telling me she's just arrived at my complex, and as I look out the window I see nothing so I repeatedly tell her yeah right. ( i kept thinking oh my I am a hot mess, and I can't believe this) sure enough they are here  and man was that my surprise!. the cake was a bonus and the Cuban sandwich was delish minus the meat.

Good stuff literally(THE CAKE WAS DESTROYED AND CONSUMED IN AN ORDERLY  FASHION) HAHA!

They came in the right time , I was feeling shitty and really out of it.I am so very grateful for their company and their presence,...It was a delight to have them . I am blessed that they come through. Thank you so much sis, nephews and mother. You guys are my safe haven.

13/31

"brothers.bond.random shyness.growing up"

Haven: Amazed by his claw (he calls it cranky ,from Thomas the train)

Orion: My goofy cheeks, i just can't get enough of his chubbiness

Lets do a: TBT

I am trying to up by blog find new things and bring them on here to show.............. so for now here's a throwback Thursday , (that's whats famous, bazzzzzzzinga ;sheldons voice intended)

Alex and i barley started dating in 2007

my oldest at about a year and a half

before Aiden started walking

Haven as a little lad

"our mini family album, for this  (throw back Thursday)"

Instagram Lately

I've traveled around the city mostly . And there's more land then anything but I love the scenery . We've been doing things here and there nothing major .

Xo-YESS

8/31

                                                       "growing up, brothers,home"

Haven: busy mind
Orion:  figuring out how to

Things and Things...

In the middle of a large job hunt, I am feeling a little nervous. Why? well because , I haven't worked in four years and I am feeling rusty. But , I am optimistic and know that all things will come together eventually (that's my hope). I mean nothing is easy when one is starting up again,  its a tad bit difficult . Just really crossing my fingers on something .

Lately, I've been feeling a bit shitty (excuse my bluntness) I kinda know why but I am gonna just blame it on the weather, that's viable right?.  I've come to terms on letting go , because I am so tired of trying and I keep getting let down.. How much is too much? Family has always been all to me , but when they don't want to budge our take one in consideration, that's when I turn over a new leaf in life. It's sad to say this but it's the truth . I mean if they talk to me good if not well, then that's  that . i can't be up for when they have the time or feel like talking . Fuck , give me so credit why don't you  and guess what "THEY DON'T". Yeah, it's stupid and immature at times , but I am human and that doesn't change me from feeling how I do. That's why I've decided on just letting myself live and enjoy ... Worrying less about these things and having the courage to finally express it . So yeah that's that.

My vegetarian journey is becoming something so dear to my heart, just because it's something that I look forward too and love doing. It's different to me and I enjoy it. It's kinda when you meet someone so rad and instantly become friends and you enjoy spending time with this certain someone, yeah that's me but without the someone , (laughing at myself). 

I've come up with my own recipes, and it's better then I expected. Talking about that , Alex and I were having a conversation about vegans and vegetarians he asks why not just become a vegan you know. My answer was simple, I can't i love baking and most of the recipes require eggs or sometimes cream , plus it might be hard to bake without these ingredients. I haven't looked at it much , on how to bake without those products , and when I do I'll try it and see first. It's be life change  being vegan because you change everything , hair products , soap, detergents, cleaning stuff etc. So for now Ill live this lifestyle . embrace it ... The truth is that the reason that I became a vegetarian was for health reasons. Every time I ate red meat, or chicken I felt sick to my stomach, so I'd start slowly avoiding it. Then when I did , there were sharp pains in my stomach that made me want to purge . That's just gross.  And really it's been good, I feel lighter and a more clear headed. My anxiety is a tad bit more controlled, and I love it.

Needless to say I hope that slowly I can bring my little family on this journey, too a more clean and healthier way of living.

Castle Park Adventure//Family Day

Nothing

                                  It's Tuesday and it's just another day , and it's been raining these past two days. ( i need sunshine, its California for heavens sake) In reality I've enjoyed some of it , but this kinda weather makes me feel a little melancholic. I think that's  the only thing that makes me hate being a women. (we are so sentimental, but it can be a good thing)random right.

As of now I am enjoying a fresh piece of bread and tea, looking at  the season finale of " hart of Dixie" i am a sucker for Zoe hart.. hahahah!

Who isn't .

just in case  you were wondering...

This picture was taken a while ago with Alex on our date night . I have heard so much about Stella Rosa that I ended up trying it. man was it heavenly. It was the most perfect wine bottle out there  and something so different from what I've tasted. yeah, that was happening.

On another note , I have nothing planned for mothers day which sucks , but I guess that's life...i"ll probably celebrate it next week, so eh!

xo-yess

May 6/31

"growing up, two different personalities,bond"

Haven: Silly as ever

Orion: Always doing his own thing (flying blocks)

Tofu//Mind

  Before becoming a vegetarian , I had always thought about tofu and what it was made of ... That's pretty much it , and just left it at that. Guess what , I finally tried it and cooked with it ( i wasn't disappointed) obviously its totally different then meat , but I'll do just fine.. I paired it with a green salad , quinoa, and my  version of stir fry, oh and a salsa that I made earlier this week. (good stuff)Chile never fails ....
I'm experimenting as I go, since my recent cookbook was an epic fail .I will say this that as much as that was a failure , I am enjoying making new things from off the top of my head. But I kinda cheated at the grocery store , I ended up  buying  veggie patties and veggie chicken . (meatless product) I still haven't ate it them yet. Lets see how that goes.. But I have been craving a Veggie Patty sub from subway , they are sooo good..(just saying)

Random Note:

(Hahah , I laugh at myself because I had no idea about tofu , that is until YOUTUBE... Yes, this (place has videos for everything and anything even tofu.')

I have been feeling good , this transition has me in a more clear state of mind and I feel more centered. I guess I keep my inspiration from things that I read and the kind of person that I want to become on the inside.  Not everyone understands, and maybe they won't but I am loving what I do and that's all that matters.

                                                   What I am enjoying about my new
                                                       VEGETARIAN LIFESTYLE


-ROASTED RED PEPPER HUMMUS
-ENDLESS SALADS
-VARIETY
-I FEEL SUPER LIGHT AND MY HEADACHES ARE SLOWLY DIMINISHING
-LESS STRESS
-POSITIVE OUTCOMES IN MY MOOD '
-FEELING, MORE SPIRITUALLY INCLINED


it's a tad bit premature , but I am taking each day in and embracing it . Grateful for taking the leap on my own and sticking it through .

5/31

  

             "brothers.growing up.images last a life time"

Coffee Talk

Lets see, where do I start.......................

 it's been hectic around here (sure has) but it helps my days go by fast. With so much on my mind , I have little to no time  (not complaining, just saying) I have Havens school on my mind , moving, school, switching into a vegetarian and on top of that my insomnia sucks more then ever. A little thing here and there at times doesn't make sense, but in my head it does. Also trying to expand my blog (but not knowing how) and just giving it time.

 Anyways, your probably wondering the whole vegetarian thing. Well I am kinda trying it out to see how I like it .. I just started and it's not as hard as I thought it would be . Because, first of all we only eat meat three times a week and most of the time I skip it . But I thought why not for health reasons, I won't impose it on my family . I am so against it , I just feel like the older we get we should have the choice to  do things . I hate being told what to do in this sense per say, but that's me.Until they are ready or feel the need to change , then they can decide.
 I am adjusting well and loving it, I love shopping for veggies anyways so i find this pleasing. I think the only kind hard part is not eating cheese, ( i don't drink cow milk ) but cheese is my obsession. I haven't ate tofu because I don't know how to cook it .... So I am doing my Homework on that.  And then eggs I have to second guess that after something disturbing , that happened to me . I normally buy eggs from Ralph's and I have never had a problem . That is until Saturday. While cracking open the eggs and putting them in a pan something reddish dry came out , like a scab. I took it out to examine and seen that it was blood from the egg it was the size of my finger nail. My stomach began to turn and I started thinking why is this happening , how gross (but its reality). With mixed feelings I started  some new eggs for my boys and chose not to eat them. Instead I had oatmeal with Almond milk and slices of apples, strawberries and bananas. I know I am being a little delicate , and i am not liking it. ( it takes time ) i keep telling myself.
It was just awkward...... ( there was no point)  I will continue to cook meat for my kids and that would be that. Transitions are always hard but are good. makes a bit of sense right..

On anther note, I finally saw the school that I want to take my son too. (it's beautiful and a bit secluded) It's by lake Mathews ... It looks secure and I got a good vibe from it (plus it's scores are amazing) I am still looking around for more options the time is so close , and I am doing things with time so I won't be rushing . I am looking forward to this new page in our family book. I also start school again after taking a semester off.

as for my insomnia, i am not sure what to do . I hope once it all slows down a bit so will my brain .wink.wink

Sunday Ramble . have a good one.

Celebration in Mayo (kind of)

 HAPPY 5 DE MAYO!!!

I am not doing anything today, given that I am home with my kids and all my family doesn't live near me. But I am  happy that  this year is flying.  From all of  ....

FYI : I just had black beans and rice with salsa in celebration. (does that count) no beers or drinks since it's Sunday.  its been gravy though. Adios Amigos.

Maybe . Not really

   It's not that often that people ask me things our question who I am. And if they do, I have no problem letting them know what they are asking. I will tell you a little bit of what I am talking about. Just the other day . a lady asked if I wanted to earn some gifts by having a show at my house and that it wouldn't cost me a dime.(OK i am listening). She kept just giving me details on potential items I could win, and that great stuff. While she kept talking I kept thinking in my head " what is the catch". After she stopped , she asked me if i could gather about ten of my closest friends so they can see the product . (it's a big company called princess) .I just started laughing so hard (tad rude) but I mean no harm . She looked puzzled and asked me what was so funny.. ( a blunt answer never hurts) I said ", oh my I am sorry ,but I have no close friends like that , I maybe only have like three and that's if , and I haven't seen them in about nine years." The lady just immediately said well I am sure you can invite family , other acquaintances. I told her I am not the kind of person who looks for people when I need something, and plus I don't take having friends lightly, so therfore sorry maybe next time. While she was packing what she has showed me , she said I should try to have more friends, because life isn't the same without them. OK , well thank you. And she walked away.

Honestly, I kinda felt bad for the lady in a way and kinda for myself.( i don't do that ). Because  I have never been a person who has a million friends. I don't like it . I am more of the, I rather have  5 close friends then a bunch of phony people surrounding me. I will never understand that , but it's just the way that I am. And just maybe it's not a good thing but life is about living happy and being around people who make me laugh, who can talk about books, art, cooking, the kids,etc. things I can relate too. I like honest,loyal sincere,blunt people. I hardly have ever known many of them. But , I have hope .and i believe good friends do exist.
In the end I felt bad for the lady because shes working on commission and I couldn't get her any,but she'll find others. So good luck to you lady.

thats life .............

May 2/31

"fast upbringing"

Orion: can be serious at times , but is so amazingly funny

Haven: adventurous and loves to boogie.

Post Ups.

MAY. 1/31

" a take on life " hakuna matata"(lion king )

awakward.a lil.never a dull day."