Gullivers Travels

DOT DOT Where do I start?

I have been so busy , like no time for fun .. I'm kidding I've had somewhat fun ...

I've come to realize why I have been gone so long , it's just that sometimes we need that space , the space for air , thoughts , clear feelings, and wipe away any mind bugging cloud .

I've had some  life changing moments these past several months.

Which if you ask me have been nightmares and blessings all in one . My depression is hiding underneath all this gibberish i have going on .

However , in the mist of all the chaos, i've managed to get some reading and start my instagram based on books I'm reading as of now . I wish I could travel with it. But I'm dealing with a ton of other related probs.

I feel lonely half of the time because my thoughts eat away at my soul.

But I think it's a personal choice , so Ill stick to that , and stop complaining.

ha! so much for hush hush , ha ! I just came up with that .

You see heres the deal , I'am a 30 something year old mom of 3 , and being a mom is so dope.  The downside is that , got you there , there isn't a down side .

NO my life is farrrrr literally far from perfect .

Here, something that has been racing in my mind these past three months , or maybe more. I want to like drop all my shit and just travel  for a month straight. Like fuck it go all out !... my reality seems to be on are you kidding me son side, however I made it happen.

Im taking baby steps to this traveling scenario, but fuck it my goal is to travel too one state every month or every other month .

I can't stand being in one place for so long . It gives me fucking anxiety , like wtf really .

I've passed somewhat of my midlife crisis and so on .

But , this isn't all there is too life .. there is more even if i work around the clock , this is my " life and I'm gonna live it ". Right ?

too much ?

I willl say this I don't wanna skip a beat by not living . I've done that for so long and it has gotten me nowhere.

So here is my question have you ever had this "fuck it" feeling ?

ah! ok enough shenanigan back to homeschooling and reading ill be back with some of my photography snippets.

peace & light  folks
y and out !