Been a Minute

I recently walked away from my blog due to computer problems and iPhone interruptions. I recently restarted my whole phone , it was so slow , and I couldn't do much on it !! So here I am after fixing all my tech dilemmas.
I haven't been up too much ( going places I mean) , I have. Even on my Instagram the most and here are some pictures to show just what I have been up too. Exercising , ad reading! Nothing major I will be back in a bit .....

Thursday// Week in Review//Shows

As many of you know there are a lot of great stuff on TV.I mean that literally (in a guilty pleasure tone), the kind where I'm overly excited about the next episode, or about what should happen next that i get all gitty. Yea, I know guilty as charged, but I bet that I am not the only one (just saying)..

I have broken down a list of my all time favorite must see shows that i just can't get enough of. These shows always have me cracking up or in suspense 24-7...(wow that sounds pretty intense )OK , OK so here they go:
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VAMPIRE DIARIES:  HOW CUTE ARE DAMIEN AND ELENA, OR EVEN REBBECCA AND POTENTIALLY STEFAN! awe, I'm in love with this CW show ( it's just that great).

NEW GIRL: HILARIOUS BY ALL MEANS , OH SCHMIDT IS SOMETHING ELSE , RIGHT? AND Jess is just so pretty aka (zooey deschanel) ...

UNDEREMPLOYED: this SHOW IS JUST SO TWISTY !! (THUMBS UP)

PARENTHOOD: this IS My ultimate go to , pour your heart out, someone help me wipe my tears away type of show. (it's just so well written , that no other family show can top it on my list) the obvious choice , and most of the scenarios hit home, i just love it!!)

HART OF DIXIE:  A VERY DOWN TO EARTH , HUMBLE SHOW.... ( AH ! RACHEL BILSON, SHE IS SO AMAZING)

so these were just on my mini list of things that I enjoy watching..As you can see I repeat the word show, show, show, ...hope  you all have an amazing Thursday!!

Well these are

Art//Beauty//

I really wished I knew who these artist are.. You know those moments when you just click in the search link , and think well let's see(obviously in a self thought ), oh let's search this . Then a whole lot of things come up and you start saving it .. Yeah , that's kind of what happens to me a whole lot. So let me just excuse myself for not knowing who these artist are , and if this is yours feel free to credit yourself ..
This what I found (browsing through the net) and it's so amazing and comforting ...
I love how art is everything and anything it has no rules , and it's self expression at its best ...

MUSIC//HANDS DOWN : RI RI

oH MY !! SHE IS AN AMAZING ARTIST AND A LEGIT SINGER..AND, AN  AMAZING FASHIONISTA (IN HER OWN WAY). A WOMEN WHO CAN PULL ANYTHING OFF AND STILL KEEP IT REAL!!I love how careless she is about what they say about her and the world. I don't think that there are many artist like her. People make comparisons , but she is unmesuarable. i love her style of music , its from the heart and so unique, her lyrics are felt and so moving.

thats why i salute you ROBIN..

IN OTHER NEWS..

 She just announced that she is merging with my ultimate favorite make-up line (MAC COSMETICS).. can't wait to get my hands on it...

 Keep doing what you do Ri !



photo credit: (the internet)

Near By// Beachie day

Kids//Fun//

Somethings// all things considered: Parent life

I think that casually there are things that sometimes don't make sense. i am a stay at home parent and i love it. (its not a job ) A lot of people I have read have the misconception of what a STAHM really does,(we do a lot). I think at one point i have even heard comments like;oh its these women that are too lazy to work, or they don't have a life ..really?? . i boggles my mind that people can be so naive as to what a stay at home mom is..... The assumption is , we stay at home watch TV, and eat all day..(not really, if you ask me) it's my belief that being at home with the kids is a privilege , not a luxury and at times a little tough. Kids are always up to something new and it's always a different day, nothing ever is a routine .. Why? because when (in my experience) i have made a schedule of , okay  today will be like this , wake up brush our teeth , eat breakfast, read, pray , clean up and so on it's a pain because when it doesn't go as planned (and a lot of other things),it can get stressful and kids will never be up for being stressed out all they want is to play. In the same way , I feel like it's life unexpected as I watch them grow up, I tell myself Ill have all the time in the world to work... Of course , hands down to the women that are  mom and dad, it's hard work (doing it all)... I think that maybe it's my experience of what I have seen that has shaped the way I see being a stay at home mom. Kids are a joy , funny, and they come up with the silliest things, and their life becomes a book, because when you look back and they are grown up, there is always a story to tell.
I am beyond grateful to be home with my kids , i appreciate all that they are too me... As for now I am off because they just woke up ....

Good Tuesday

a place of the unknown: TRAVEL THOUGHTS.

I AM THINKING OF A BUCKET LIST THAT FITS PERFECT......

I WANT TO TRAVEL GENTLY AND SLOWLY .

obviously that being locally first and then saving money to go farther...
 here are just some of the places that sound so rad ...

AMSTERDAM
ITALY
FRANCE
AUSTRALIA
SPAIN
AUSTRIA
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IN THE STATES:

San Diego
Portland, oregon
Arizona
NEW YORK
FLORIDA (I've been here , but i would love to go again)
UTAH
ALASKA
HAWAII

tHE WONDERS!!!

Lonely:was a painted picture

I painted this picture of a lonely human. A human that lost itself in thought and in heart, that when she turned, she leveled her mind and set off into the distance. As she ponders her way through life , nothing seems to ever fit in place, No one knows this about her and she wont ever tell, if the fear of rejection cant pass her mind what can bother her lonely soul.. Its the same solitude that stands between her and her conscious . Can she ever take place into a soul to trust?  if when her heart yearns will there be hope? it never paints itself and she wont ever turn to anyone. in the end no one cares, she relates to that sadness of the silence of the lambs as she puts it. how lonely can her nights be when in a blink of an eye its all gone................
She creates the words in her mind and feels the sense to reach out , yet its the same obstacles that she started with ...In the oblivious scenario , she wants to achieve that which she so desires, its in measurable in her life to say it isn't possible. it never makes sense and it never will.  Dense is the fog out her window, out there is where she hopes to be and when she is their she will paint that lonely picture and achieve, what she was set out to be...

Music: Reasons to love her:Portishead

                                                                  she is diverse ,stunning, composed of self lyrical beauty.

Picks:Beauty Must haves

I l0ve all these products by far .. It's good being a women /just wanted to throw i
That in/
There is so much out there and once my hair grows in i'll start posting up videos , for now I'll just do this .. Here they go... ( what's your favorite beauty product ?
PONDS
MAC
LOREAL
MAYBELINE
BURT'S BEE
ORGANIX
ESSIE

Hair:short problems

I discovered how dreadful it is to have short hair again... After the haircut (that I gave myself) I'm developing this feeling of awkwardness .. ( I'll manage ,I hope) but in the event, where I gaze at my phone and see so many people with beautiful long hair (I reminisce ) . Then again I did this to myself for over processing it .the good this is that it grows so that's something to look forward too. As for my current dilemma ,it's so hard to style..( super drag ) .its just so boring!! So I considered buying extensions (face in shock)yes that awful phony stuff you put in the hair to look fabulous ( beauty miracles , I tell you) .This is how it went. I go up to the booth gaze and touch the samples they have hanging and I'm thinking to myself " this feels way to soft and thin to add to my hair .." I laugh at myself and turn away , as I'm walking away the hair consultant comes after me and convinces me to try it on . By the way her name is so beautiful (sage) . We walk over and she puts on this hair piece called "halo "...
She flips it that way , this way and even curls it and blends into my short thick hair. I'm so in awe, because it honestly looks so so pretty . but I wondered why am I about to spend money on hair?? When I can wait and let mines grow .. ( seems reasonable thinking ) I go on and ask the girl how much for it , and she drops it on me 265.00 dollars and up with no warranty ... ( my jaw drops) ..I take it off , say thank you and walk away ( I couldn't believe it) . Wow! Beauty cost a lot ,but that was too much for me .. And as much as I'll nag on here , my hair will grow and I would have saved that money .. ( for sure) . As for dying my hair , I made a 300 dollar bet that I wouldn't dye my hair this whole year ..(easy money right ?)the thought of no change kills me , but I'll just have to wait and see .... FYI short hair is ok for those who love it , but for this gal , I had to do it to remove all the damaged parts.. It's a renewing project , so to speak , searching for that inner optimism so I won't drive myself crazy !!
P.s.s. hair ticking clock!! Please hurry , this picture was taken I think on dec 2012 the beginning!!

Currently

Things I am obsessing over: This whole Russia meteor that just happened , The atmosphere, vinyl music

I am lacking: On my reading ( the truth is I haven't picked up a good book lately , I'm working on it), keeping in touch with friends , painting

Loving: the color red, galaxy leggings , and vintage finds , my cannon (T3), Starbucks on any given day!!!


In the future: I'm just living day to day

Random gibberish , and just things that Are on my mind lately .

Xo-yess

Mainly: Music

After watching the Grammys last week I was in awe , so much good music and very Inspirational to say the least..


. I say this because , when MySpace was famous and everyone wanted to be heard (musicians) that was the place to kind of start.
The black keys was that band that I heard and thought , wow this is a really dope band . And that was decades ago ( merely exaggerating ) but it seems like it.. And after seeing the same band become so big and create some music that sticks with you , I became a fan.... Lonely boy is the jam, and I have become a great believer that dreams come true ... it's cool to sit here and reflect on something so rad , and say I was there from the beginning...
And for this is I ::Salute you::: ( the black keys )

Oscar: My Quick Picks

Best Picture: Lincoln

Actor in a Leading Role: Bradley Cooper (this would be so badass)

Animated Feature Film: Frankenweenie

Film Editing: Silver Linings Playbook

Writing in origininal screen play
 Django

I would love these films to win : Django, Lincoln, Silver Linings Playbook, Zero Dark Thirty

For the heck of it!! Oscar predictions

My Valentines

Wow! It was short an sassy and simple. It couldn't be more
Perfect , and unexpected . in the end I grubbed madly on chocolates ( gaining weight hahha)Had lunch at TGI Fridays , love that place .. and enjoying my Lillie bunch !! Thanks to my babies Orion and Haven, Alex for being amazing !

Friend: I lost a Dear one(short story)

           Growing up from city to city is very difficult, it takes a toll on a child's life and in the same way it creates (instability, that's just my opinion ) speaking from experience. Well , when I moved from Inglewood , to Long Beach I can recall crying and hating everything, because I had to move .. I lost all my little friends a good friend of mine who had the same name , had just moved away to New York so it all sucked. It was awful timing (literally) ..I don't think i can get or will ever get over the day we moved. But  anyway, when I came to Long Beach, I went to a very close elementary school called (Webster). And It was like being in a foreign country , no one talked to me and well  I was kinda of a tomboy.and most of the girls were (bullies)but I survived. Somehow,  it worked out and I started making friends , talked to mostly boys and that was that. Through that friendship I met the one person that was always there for me (from the time we were kids all the into our adulthood),who always made me laugh (Gustavo). And as we grew older we talked on occasions and even hung out. He was the perfect friend an Aries and a very down to earth person. Always brutally honest , but he had his moments. And in a bad moment in my life I pushed him away , and now he's moved so far , it makes me sad....
 Where ever he is , I will forever thank him for being a great person to me!  Later Buddy , till we meet again..........
p.s.s have you ever lost a friend that you couldn't find?

Weekend: wrap up(mini trip)

So this weekend was super cool, full of surprises and unexpected events... I'll let the photos do the talking ! FYI : this was a mini trip to Newport it was gorgeous !!

Religion (random)

The other day as I sat on my couch , I sat so still , this numbness ran through my body . It was just something i couldn't explain, so I'm going to try to do so here.
There is no such way to say this so i will blurt it out, "what is my religion"??
Ever since becoming a convert (LDS) church , I have become so confused it's eating my brain alive. It's like I'm in a time warp and I have no escape.  Really i don't understand why, because when I converted  I was totallyy fine with everything and accepted things that maybe, i should have second guessed... as a convert , you have certain customs that still stick with you from the old religion.(ughh)  This all sounds confusing, I have no point and I feel like I am falling apart spiritually, and it sucks.. I have prayed and then I start thinking ...and thinking (I'm drained)...

I want to just belong to a place where I feel completely comfortable and nothing can bother me , but I'm not..

I have narrowed down my thoughts , well the pros and cons. And to be fair , they even out .............. SO I'm back at zero..

This almost makes me feel shallow, and I have no Idea what to do ( sighs )..should I just follow my heart? (maybe ) 

This is crazy

xo
yesss

Valentines Day: Ideas

With this Day, Full of love ahead of us, i thought I'd make a collage of gifts for her and him. The collage represents, what I'm thinking on getting Alex and what most girls would want, obviously with roses ,and a box of chocolates. I'm not into roses, I'm not sure why , but a tulip or Lillie does it for me.

Anticipation

There has been so much going on , that I forgot about my blog
The good thing is that I am back !!
Let me give you a little insight about what's been happening. First off I started a new fitness regime called " insanity ". Man is that workout hard . It's satisfying at the same time and I am so happy I'm feeling a lot more happier , calm and intune , I've been also focusing more on a healthy us.. I always thought that buying organic is a crash course in my wallet , but man will I tell you that I can't even tell the difference in my spending , cooking more healthy and from scratch . I finally mastered making French bread .. But now I'm taking on the task of making wheat bread ( wish me luck ).Reading a lot more , writing , painting, and obsessing over vinyls ... And other things that will come later !! I got to go , I can't find my computer charger, so typing on my phone sucks .. Plus I have so many pictures I want to share from my cannon .. But for now here are some pictures ! Have and amazing weekend toodles - yess