Out of Nowhere

I have been so far away from my blog. That I forget that someone is even listening. I think I've gotten lost in the busyness, and soak up as much yoga as possible. Man , has life been out of wack.  Everything is so lost in the universe, that me grasping it seems like a dream. Not to mention the feeling of lost . I know that's  life, but fuck it seems like breaks aren't allowed to be taken. Talking about feelings seems a bit hasty for me , it's something that I am not always comfortable, but I am at my wits. How much is a enough , when are we moms just enough, without getting judged. It seems like we are always trying so hard to keep everyone happy that in the end there is still something that someone wants to complain about. I get it; I'm a mom and things happen , but with so much how is it that the feeling of solitude still settles within me. It's almost like soul compromising. The thought of being present fades when negativity is sprinkled all over this joyousness moment . I feel like I'm failing myself , and everything I am. The thing that I look forward to the most is my children.  They are the universe that surrounds my sanity.  I'm just rambling the feelings and the shit that I am being felt for not being enough to others. In the end , I just have to keep my sanity.