Bits and Pieces:Park Day

It was a nice Saturday.the sun was out,followed by a nice  morning breeze. magical Saturday not many of those happen..

 

we met some of our other family members. it was fun and my kids got out for a change. (given that we are home a lot)

we got woken up early Saturday, because Alex had a game at 8 am. I was not in the mood,especially that early. My kids were fast asleep, and they look so comfortable it would've been dreadful to just wake them. So i waited , got myself ready(they eventually woke up on their own) and before you know it , it was nine thirty when we left the house, and by the time we got there (time flew). The good things was that it was half time and my kids got some play time with their dad. (before he went back in )

After the, game ended we stayed a while snapping pictures kicking the ball around , running , chasing the kids. It was hella fun. Nothing beats a good unexpected family outing.

Small Talk

after my crazy trolling experience through the city  and back , i am beyond exhausted.... I can't look at another apartment or even the idea of having to do  that pleases me. At this point I am second guessing my steps and directions... In the end it all just takes time ..

Life :According to my Instagram

Yesterday was a day full of everything , I mean that so literally . And well it was unexpected and fun.

                           apartment hunting. sunsets.arcade .book store shopping. trees.

Friday Ritual: Still Photo

. brothers, stillness,love,memories,  a moment to reflect on how fast my kids are growing up.

Cooking: Shrimp Pasta//5 //Whats in my Kitchen?

Shrimp (a plate full, with the tails cut off)
-Boil, Half a Box of fettucini.
- Cut your veggies (onion,squash,grape tomatoes,Watercress)
-In a Pan add about a tablespoon of butter over meadium heat -->add onion (cook until its a nice brown color)
-Add the squash (cook it a littl bit until its semi tender , not over cooked)
-Put in the already cooked shrimp ( i buy the ones that are already cooked and ready to use , its a time saver)
-Throw in the cooked pasta ,Stir
 ( add pepper,sea salt,garlic salt, this part here is too your tasting) stir,stir,stir,so the seasong evens out )
-Stir in about Half a cup of Grape tomatoes,lemon zest (1 tbs of lemon juice)  chopped up Watercress.stir ,and serve.
 serves 2-4 people

                                                                Finally...

i don't normally post up recipes or food, but given that I do love food I might make a day just for posting up food and drinks. 

My kids loved this dish .. 

bohemian style: indoors/outdoors

 

"something closer to a zen feeling"

thank you -pinterest

Happeningsss.

I  received some bad news today, and to tell you the truth I am so bummed nothing else can change my mood this day. I am trying to take it with a grain of salt and brush it off as a sign that maybe whatever I thought was meant for me really isn't. On the other hand I'm having to change certain things in my life .

But i know this that no matter what I do , I can always come home to babies screaming" mommy I miss you". That really upped my day  and left me feeling good even after all that went on...

"grateful for my silly boys"

Mind:Sometimes

I am not sure why , but for the past couple of days my mind is so active that it leaves me sleepless. There is always something unsettling about this lack of sleep. I hate that i can't sleep.  I have been so tired and maybe it was the weekend of fun that I might still be dragging on . but it's not fun. You know when you have that long day ahead and you had no sleep , and while running errands your sleep starts kicking in (yes , that's gonna be me today). So , I resort to my blog , to feed my thoughts.With the move coming up soon, and finding a place , it's been a drag.  And maybe this is the reason that my mind has been so out of control.  (rambling on my bad)

Not only that ,but the fact that I am so unsure what I want to study , and with school meetings also arising, I question whether I am destined to be a professional. I love being a mum, and the idea of my kids growing up leaves me feeling weary, so I am not sure what to do with this . There are times that I wish I could live in a city full of trees and clean air so I can have a clearer thinking process. The city feeling; blocks me and leaves me feeling overwhelmed, given that it moves so fast.
I believe that I need to follow my  dream, but I have to wait for the right time, and I want to know whats my next step before deciding to make the next move .(already doing this)
As for now, I am gonna try my best to fall back asleep and try to take it day by day , i have repeated this to myself a bazillion times no lie. At this point,  I just have to own my words and focus.

On ANOTHER note:

Getting back on track has been a big downfall for me, I stopped working out, and I have just become so bland that it's killing me.  Ill take baby steps again and again until I learn to stand still mentally.

I will say this , I have an amazing husband and wonderful kids , and with patience i can overcome my insomnia and stop my train of thoughts.

 I feel a little better now and  I think  I can go back to sleep in a serene state of mind . ( i am crossing my fingers). 

xo-yess

HAVEN

Mondays are for reflections

                                             Lately slash Currently

Lately : I have been thinking of seriously moving out of state and not looking back . I've been reflecting on the big changes that I will be coming across, and how to deal. Planning of purchasing a home . Drinking less coffee(not that important),indulging on more organic teas. Really looking forward to starting school.

Currently: I have been obsessing over avocados(weird choice as a current , but it works). I've given up TV and life luxuries, for a more frugal life.(i hope it all changes soon). I have been buying more food and shopping less for clothing (i have been dreading it lately).Writing more .collecting mugs as a hobby ( is that strange?)

Wanting: My hair to grow so long (i hate this short hair dilemma). the new book from Kelly oxford. more records.

Thinking: about opening an etsy shop (but it's still in the works).  knitting more often, and buying a new sewing  machine.

I have so much more to add , but I'll save it for another entry...

xo- yess

Weekend Uexpected

I don't think this weekend was planned with so much anticipation as it should've been, which made it that much funner. My sister and her kids don't come by that often , because the drive isn't always the funnest , and well she works and the kids are always at school, and really sometimes we just don't always think about it. This weekend was a tad bit different, because she always says that she'll  come by and she  just never does. And after many of those , we might go I kinda lost hope for us to get together. It happens with anything ... since she was telling me that she was I believed a little of it but I second guessed it also. After my moms call telling me , that they were coming I felt like wow, iam washing my house is upside down and I can't figure it out. Which really sucks, because,If I had OCD I'd maybe be a little bit more organized than usual.(but i don't ,ehmm) I just have to find a different strategy to always be ready ...

I scrambled for about three in a half hours , and after a while i sat down and said , nah they won't come by.. My cellphone rings in this matter " we are outside come open the door" (surprised , very if you ask me).

I guess I cherish my family coming because we don't really do it that often , and I want to be a great host when they stop by from Long Beach. It's always nice to see genuine people that I can call family that show mad love for me and  my kids and husband. It's nice to see them .

We had a little carne asada, chattered a bit , laughed, played poker , movies, and lastly we went into the pool.Ugh, it was muggy in the valley that I wasn't sure if this was momentary until this afternoon. We jumped in and it was freezing , I couldn't feel by soul. (exagerating a bit) It sure felt that way..

Finally, I can say that I surely had an amazing weekend  and I am truly looking forward to many more.

the zoo: we recently enjoyed

Wow! after along time of contemplating, when to go and how to get there ,we just decided to roll to the zoo(it had been so long since we visited). I think that as my children grow up there are things that i think throughly before just doing them , you know traveling is one of them, and it  isn't really my boys forte, especially when it means driving around town for more then 15 minutes.(patience) And well the zoo is an adventurous place , and kiddie friendly so why not just let them sit in the car for about an hour wouldn't hurt.

According to the instructions it was an hour drive (iPhone maps you lied) it was more like a two and a half hour drive, with speeds running at ten miles per hour.. and this was horrible. Obviously, I found this out once we hopped on the five freeway and hardly ever moved. And man was it a long one. Fortunately, i was able to entertain my boys (dance moves come in handy) and it was like the time was on our side..

LA is never an appealing drive and if you live in California you know what I am talking about, but it sure does for a nice local road trip any day.. I think that as much as I hated thinking about this before hand , i enjoyed it . My oldest really took notice of the vehicles by counting them , noticing the rate of speed, and constantly questioning me about what the people in these cars were doing.(literally,"mom what he's doing?) all the way  . So our chatter made for an amazing bonding moment even if it meant just talking about cars and humans (wishing they were zombies, it would've been a way more intense talk) but I could deal.
All in all it was an experience,and I love making memories I mean who doesn't.
Lastly, we met with my sister and her kids , they actually live way closer then us, but it some weird way we met on the freeway at the exact time.  I did  learn this ,last minute planning is always the best.