Growing Up ..

     Time passes so fast. I always wonder where is time going. These past couple of weeks I have seen such a change in my boys , that I'm starting to feel a bit melancholic. And happy at the same time. there are days that are crazy, fun, sad, upsetting. As many parents know it , when you have children there is no days that are the same. It's quite a journey getting through the day ... But as for me , I feel like I learn something new everyday...

Lately, Orions favorite ( get out of a situation phrase is "mommy I love you") ..Those words just make me melt so quick.. He has been going through quite a transition... He talks a whole lot , and loves pretending..

 Haven on the other hand , is becoming more of a big boy .. He is starting to understand more the concept, lets relax and talk about it or once you've settled down and feel better we can talk. The tantrums are still there, but I'm learning to help them cope with them more and more each day...

Saturday Night

We didn't do much this day. I have been so exhausted and really tired , the days seem so long and really hot. However we went miniature golfing last night, just to get out of the house at least to breath some fresh air. These days in California are horrible. I can honestly say that I think it's been the worst summer. The humidity , the extreme heat . I'm not feeling it . I rather have gloomy days , in the morning, noon , and just a sky full of clouds at and nights with clouds full of water . As I type this, it sounds better in my head , so my bad.


sorry totally rannnnndum.

Mixed Thoughts... and feelings

I have so many things to decide in the upcoming weeks of school. Why ? simply because , I'm leaning toward homeschooling my oldest this year.  Even though the school is alright I'm not a fan of the school system . I had a bad experiences growing up , and the reality is that the state and the entire nation is less and less involved or doesn't even care for the the educational system. There are so many thoughts that I keep replaying in my head. Not only that , with the crazy elementary school shootings that have happened in the past I worry every time I leave my child. My stomach is literally in knots when I leave my child. As a parent I shouldn't have to feel like this , I should feel confident leaving him and knowing hes going to be OK.  

Maybe I'm mistaken by my intuition , paranoid , but I think It's normal really .

I have heard of so many stories of parents with five even six kids who have been home schooled all their lives and really are at a higher level then the children in the school system.

With time passing , I'm feeling the heat of whats best ... I know what I want , but in some way my family thinks it's the wrong thing too do.

so confused........................

xo-yess

Monday bleh.

Time after time I come back thinking that I'll be staying for a minute or update my post. The truth is that I suck at this blogging thing . With many different attempts I've come to resolution that I'm never going to be here 100%. I have the worst computer , and it's horrible at uploading all my pictures. Basically I'm left with little to no content for my postings. There have been so many different things happening, and a recent update on our loves , that I'm really trying to get back mah groove!

AS for now, I'm lounging on the couch chilling  waiting for my clothes to dry and watching my boys play a Little mine craft. And wondering what am I going to cook. Tired , and hating this humid weather we are having ... Nothing can be more horrifying then this random California weather. (not so bad) but just not great , if you get my drift.

Hope You Guys are Having a great Monday!
Peace