This isn't happening

I woke up too get to work this morning , not really feeling 100 percent . I had been awake since 3 am , with a nightmare that had been lingering through the wee hours of the night. I am not sure why I was up so early and why this nightmare was even there. This is what I do know , that it has triggered my Anxiety full force..

I can feel my heart beating fast , and my stomach turning over and over this is the worst feeling in the world ...I can't stay this way I hate it ..

I'm not even sure why it's lingering around me , I'm ok in every other aspect . It's like a weird feeling outside of myself ..

My chest hurts .

I have blank thoughts I just need to be out of my head without it affecting me whole being .

How does one do that without feeling like shit

Ah! man Im really hating myself for what I am going through mentally .. The only thing that somewhat worked was going to the beach , but I live so dam far ..

I think I need to get my fucking shit together .. and maybe that might help I kind of know the source of my feelings but I am not 100 percent .