T I M E

When I think about what this year has been my heart aches, and quietly cries. This year has been short of great. I can say that it has been so HARD....

With my kids father leaving me for another women , moving on so swiftly with no care in the world I feel as If this pain will never go away . I settle for less then I deserve , dating someone who treats me worst then he did ... What am I really searching for?

Sometimes nothing seems to help , I have some great people  but this is beyond that .

As I sit here and just contemplate and text away with my good friend , why ?

Do we women settle for less? Why can't we accept the solitude for what it is and just live and enjoy each moment ?

My conclusion is we were accustomed , and we lived in such a way that always involved family .

However, it's always better to let go and heal . I've learned this the hard way to be completely honest. Sometimes it's the hidden pain that we have to go through that helps us see the blessing .

It's a bit of a contradiction . But life itself is just this way ..

One thing that I have learned is that dating SUCKS! It's hard and complicated , I feel like  trust has become a great issue.  Trust within myself , trust in others , and how can I be happy when I don't trust .

Im just slowly learning to be with myself , and accept the trials and tribulation that arrises.

Life isn't always bad ; but complicated .. I know many women that are going through emotional withdrawals , heart aches , and everything else in between ..

It's hard!

Im ranting but this is my journey  to recovery , it's not easy ...