Change

I'm not a normal human being

my feelings are beyond what I can understand

sometimes i hate being alive and sometimes I don't

maybe it's my secret or quiet personality

i know it can't be my alter ego

In my transition of change I want TO not feel this way

I want to feel solid , with no other interruptions

In reality it's hard

Because , of my friend Anxiety & Depression

I've asked normal beings how do they do it to be still and just enjoy life with nothing hindering it, all i get is I don't know i was born this way .....

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silence ,

i guess it is what it is ...