Broke the Ice

   I started school yesterday , and I had so much going on in school online. You'd think that I would be OK with introductions and I could submit any thoughts about who I am over the computer and post. I figured out that , I'm not that great with saying much about myself to strangers. *wink *

My blog is my second home, I'm so comfy saying random things and at times not making any sense, and I'm alright with that . But for school, it seems  different. Especially since I know my professors are reading the context.. It was fun though . I got to meet others with the same majors and stay at home moms. It took me forever to type intros for all three of my classes, ah! but I broke the ice. I'm getting back into the swing of things and I have a tone of work to do .  It's going  be a heck of a ride  this semester. I'm glad I am able to take a computer class for my major  which is "computer science".  Salud! to a new start and an interesting semester. 

This is what I've been doing lately.

what have you been up to ?

xo- yess

A -Lot going on .

                  I'm excited . I wish I could share what I've been working on , but as for now I can't . I soon will. Meanwhile , I'll just tell ya a little bit of what has been going on . well my son has been on vacation this past week and one day. It's been so relaxing around here except for the part where they both got extremely sick. It's sorta passing , but in some way it's still there. With the exception of there sickness we've managed to have a fun family time. We saw the movie Lego, I gotta say hands down it was good from beginning to end, a must see film. It was first in the box office this past week, which I am proud to recommend it . It's an everyone kinda flick, even though the intended  audience is kids , it's all around action packed movie. If you haven't seen it , go watch it. My favorite character is wild style. That's all I'm giving away.

But seriously it's that good.

My family and I celebrated my sisters 41'st birthday. It's was so much fun. There was a little bit  of everything . Food , Laughs, Bonding , and the best moment of the night , rubbing cake all over my sisters face as part of the new time in her life. She was an awesome sport about it. I realized that no matter how bad things got in the past , we are finally living the future together as a family , the only person missing was my oldest nephew . The made carne asada , beans,pasta , rice , and tons of salsa . Awe! how I love my peoples. Man how time has flown all my nephews and nieces are so so big . All and all it was a fun and successful event , and we will be all getting together again for my nieces 19th birthday . I'll try to post photos soon.

I'M nervous .
I start school again . Online classes are so difficult, but there is nothing more satisfying then knowing that I am continuing my education . On top of that , I am opening an online shop . I will be selling vintage one of a kind pieces.  Once it's up in the next week , Ill post a link . What I am looking for is a website that will fix my blog. Like a blog design , I've done some searching , but I just don't know how that stuff works , any recommendations ?

I am open to any blog ideas , thanks for stopping by .

xo- yess

Currently enjoyed moments

                                                     #cocos pies are beyond the best

Being A Ma-ma

Before I became a mother , i never really ever pondered on what it was that i wanted to be when I grew up .I always hear stories about the ultimate dream .  What is the ultimate dream ? I don't think that it really exist when we are small. Or at least that is what it seems to me . I just believe that things happen as our lives move on . We make choices and we do what we want . Maybe, your asking well what does that have to do with being a mom ... It's just that . I don't think that being a mom was my ultimate goal when I was little , I played with dolls and all , but I never wanted to be one. I saw my mother struggle during our up bringing , that I dreaded the idea of ever becoming one.  The thought of  it was my biggest fear, and I always thought that I would suck at it,anyways.  I knew that I wanted to travel the world and just be free. This wasn't exactly what happened. Forward , twenty-five years I had my first son  and that's when all changed. The way I thought and the way I felt. I'm not gonna lie it has been hard , hard in the sense that I don't trust anyone with my kids so I've never been on a solo date with my husband . It's been over five years . I guess no one ever tells you how overprotective you can become , or how untrustworthy humans can be in the eye of a parent.  If that makes any sense. There are the days of fun and nothing but laughter and then there are those days of , shit !.  All in all i can say that my children have taught me a lot , and till this day they still are.  I'm starting to wonder if this what I'm meant to do . If this  is my purpose. Motherhood comes with  territory and with a lot  doing things that at one point in my life I never thought of doing.  I love being a mom . This isn't a job it's a gift that was given to me by the lord. I want to raise my children to be contributors to the world while being respectful young men. Where old traditions meet the new era.  Maybe it's a lot to ask for . I know it's do able.  I love it . (motherhood)  Each day is so different .  Even though I didn't have an ultimate dream , this became  my ultimate blessing.  
 Being called, MOM and hearing the words, I LOVE YOU MOM are the sweetest words in the world .

Lately

It's Tuesday

          Time flies so bad, and I don't realize it till maybe Friday , if that makes any sense. AH ! so much fun has been going on , unexpected good family time and well a bunch of new things. I took a ton of photos and yet I can't share thanks to this google chrome book. I certainly didn't expect this but I'm feeling the urge too share photos. Anyways , that will just have to wait . My weekend was great , it was my nieces seventieth birthday , and my brother went out with a bang . The house was decorated so nice, there was a ton of teal roaming his house, with a dog theme. She's fascinated by animals especially dogs , since you know they only have five in all . It's a crazy house with tons of barking , the upside to that is that their dogs are so , so chill. My kids love their dogs,  Just imagine , there was  about twenty of us (just in the family ,with some missing) and these five dogs (mad house ) for sure. Well we had , taquitos al vapor, pozole, desserts from Portos, and then mango mousse cake ; thee best cake by far.
Days before her birthday party, i was stressed , i didn't know what to get my niece for her birthday , I had known sh'ed like pokemon  , but everyone kept telling me she was 17 and that wouldn't be an ideal gift because she's turning 17 . Well I mean , the idea is to get a gift that they will like and not just leave it there unused right? that was gift giving is for . I eventually spent hours at the mall , and got her the perfect gift ,with pokemon cards included . ha! she loved it and that was the good part, the exciting part. hmm!  i mention part ,part twice. my bad it's really early in California  so my brain is kinda on sleep mode . That was good.

On Sunday  the NFC AND AFC championship was rolling , and I was all over it. Football is soon coming to an end , quite frankly I AM SO BUMMED!.  I had my family over for , we grubbed on Birria , and like an assortment of COCOS pies. There was a bunch of screaming , oooosss and ahhhhhs! Ref call arguments, and a lot of laughing .  It was intense , yet so exciting , in the end , the broncos and Sea Hawks came out on top , they will be at the main event(Super bowl Sunday Feb. 2). Of course it doesn't end there, the pro bowl is in Hawaii and my QB ANDREW LUCK will be one of the QB there, then it's the best player third annual awards. AH !! so even though  (football) is ending, it ain't done yet .

I'm prepping for the super bowl , I am pumped !! Even though my COLTS aren't gonna be there , it's FOOTBALL , nothing ever goes wrong with some; raw hitting , helmet cracking ball game .

peace-

I almost died

In the past month or so i decided to go vegan , and stop eating meat cold turkey . I thought why not it will be a big change and plus it could do me more good then bad . I've done a lot a research , and thought well this has to be easy . And for the most part it was, I can't complain , I loaded up on tons of fruits and veggies, no cheese , or any dairy products. Honestly, I felt great , i can attest to even having more energy and never feeling lethargic.  AS time  kept passing by it was becoming more natural , without having any meat urges, like even from day one, I ended up getting grossed out by the menudo that my family was eating.

Here I am a day ago with the most dramatic outcome of my current lifestyle. (this has to be all my fault).

Yesterday , I 'd decided to do a half day fast . I hadn't eatin anything , and all i made myself was a green smoothie. A bit after that , a indulged in a bowl of fruit . SO my fast wasn't bare , it was just smoothies and fruit , no breads, pastas, rice or beans or nuts, just plain old fruit and veggies. Kind of like a raw diet in other words, but just half of the day . I drank almost four liters of water , and this was just in morning , so I was feeling good , nothing special . At about 2pm , I decided on eating a sandwich , with a side of Serrano chili pepper. Here I am eating this oh most tasty vegan sandwich  , it was all good , i finished it and well that was that .

I went on to sit down on my bed and research some online job business , since I am currently seeking employment . I was taking an evaluation for almost thirty minutes , when I get this tossing and turning feeling . My stomach was acting up so I rushed to the restroom, and then I get this extreme excruciating pain in the middle of my stomach underneath my breast bone . I felt like I had got the wind knocked out me , I couldn't take it , i started feeling dizzy , light headed and seeing blurry . I kept screaming my husbands name for some time , but he was resting for the afternoon shift . Here I am laying on the floor screaming "help, help", at that moment I wanted to puke my guts out , in which case I did for a long time. (sorry for being blunt) I felt this heavy faint feeling over take my body . My youngest one the opens the  door and says mom, mom , i looked up and told him to wake up daddy , and tell him to wake up . He storms out the restroom , and I could faintly here him dad, mom.  Here finally comes,  , asking me whats wrong ,and  if he calls the paramedics or would I want to go to kaiser.(i ended up not going anywhere) His words felt so far away , I couldn't even make out what he wanted us to do , until he screamed. I obviously couldn't even tolerate getting up. I felt as if my soul was being ripped out of me , I kept telling Alex, I felt like I'm dying ...And like that I passed out for a quick second .. or so that's what it felt like. I was there for almost two hours , the pain , the agony , I was so cold I could feel my body turning cold cold, I was freezing . After the time passed , I felt a tad bit  OK. At least for the time being .

Alex , takes off to work and here I am home by myself with my kids, thinking oh lord help me.  I walked to the kitchen  and turned on the oven and rested on it . The warmth of the oven felt like it wasn't doing nothing for me . I opened the oven and let the heat hit me , I was still freezing , and not feeling any help from the oven I turned it off and headed to my room .

 My kids and I fell asleep , next to me and that is all I remember. Here I am the next morning,
 with so much pain in my body , my head is throbbing and my muscles are achy.

I still don't know what that pain was or is , I'm guessing an ulcer. And ,if dying feels like that , I'm so afraid ...........

I will be up all night

   There will be no sleep tonight . My oldest has a very strong cough that just isn't letting him sleep.  I dread these kind of days, the good thing is that he is older and is able to tell me what hurts him. I've tried almost every trick in the book, and I just recently gave him Organic agave since the honey I have isn't raw, this actually helped him release all that was stuck in his lungs . So what I did, was put him in another room, and since it was fresh he eventually knocked out , and hasn't realized I'm not there. Yes, my five year old still sleeps with me , it's a habit we haven't broken , because since dad works graveyard shift and is away 12 hours ;six days , there is basically no need for that extra space. That is unless he's sick .Lets see how long this will last, so far he's sound asleep and after letting go what was in his throat  maybe that was what made him comfortable.( this was me last night <---)

  I honestly  fell asleep after I blogged this and just remembered  i had this post half started . You know that moment when you have all these ideas at the top of your head and your typing away and everything sorta comes to you all at once and," bam"! you loose your thought process. Yeah , that was me last night all pumped and vuala I blanked out and knocked out . Story of my life if you ask me. SO here I am trying to get this ball rolling since it's Monday , man it just seems like one of those really long days. I'M not sure why Mondays seem to feel this way .

Today

I got this computer that I had recently talked about , it's a chrome book. And man I can't upload any of my photos, or save any photos offline. I guess for now I just have to type , and talk about the things that have been going in around me , because I can't show you .

Right now I'm sitting here on the couch watching my team play the AFC Divisional Championship , man it's such a hard game  , I didn't think it was going to go down like this. We are loosing by about three touchdowns and there is only 11:12 on the clock . It's going to take a good miracle to beat this dudes (patriots). I was really feeling that we had it , and I didn't want this football journey to end like this, but I do believe that we can pull this out *stomach growls* . Or so I want to think that . But you know what no matter what we made it this far in the playoffs, beat the best of the best and well we can't win them all. Andrew Luck (QB) for my colts , is in his second year as a rookie, man has he done a lot of things that no other rookie has .  I'm a proud fan , and football just gets better with time. Sunday will be another day full of football, and more football. I'll be back on the couch with my boys enjoying some good stuff. Not to mention the load of good TV there is.  I know this is a totally random post but I'm thinking what kind of post I want to share, as I write this . Anyway, have a good Saturday whatever it is that your doing, ill be here on this couch chilling for the next 6:19 minutes . That's a wrap. ha!

-yess

Finally

After being away such or what seems like such a long time , I am finally back on this. I finally got a new computer, well kinda a new computer. Its small , but It works and at this point ill take anything . Today has been a day full of great things , and a whole lot of surprises. First my dearest child puked at school, he wasn't feeling all that after he ate eggs. He's was fine in the morning , and I thought that maybe he would get over it , given that he was nagging that he wanted to stay home and play "mine craft". After i dropped him off I kept feeling guilty that I had made him go.  And as I walked away , i thought man , what if he throws up , what if I was wrong . Sure enough, he only lasted in school an hour and forty-five minutes. Lesson learned, always go with my instinct . On the other hand I have so many photos that I want to upload , so I'll go on a random super photo expo. In Anyway I'm glad that I am back , and this time ill keep updated on here.

Times

There really aren't any plans for Christmas this year . Our normal tradition is ; we get together exchange gifts , and load up on tamales . Gather around the tree hang out and talk , and just relax really. But it's unlikely this will be occurring .  I'm really trying to get something set up here  , but I'm just fooling myself , and really it's exhausting . Because personalities get in the way and really it should be a persons choice, to want , to hang out with the family(it is what it is you know) . It seems that these holidays have rushed through our fingers and ,Christmas is in two weeks . I am over whelmed by it all . It's been an interesting year and all that Iam ready for 2014.  Didn't think I've be saying this . 

On another note , I've totally been neglecting the blog because my computer is busted . The screen popped and it just doesn't work. Sadly , I am out of a computer , all I have is Instagram . The upside was that I rememberd that blogger had an app. Ha! So here I am typing on my phone which seemingly is quite uncomfortable . 

But I am here and it's all good .  

I'll be back later with more stories of happenings and a bunch of random rambles .

-yess