Soul Searching

               In my many wonders of life and things there is always some kind of endless thought I carry daily. I never talk about it much because , I don't think that anyone has the answer . It's a self journey but in irony of things I feel like I should talk about it here openly. Maybe no one reads this but my thoughts invade space in my brain , and I just have to get things out .

Why are we here ? What is expected of us spiritually ?  whats this life that we are living?

        A lot of the times,  I ask close people I know about this , and all I get is a blank stare.  I believe that soul searching and meaning takes a lot out of us , that it's the reason I or you do it less.  I am always so caught up in my now moment that I forget my reasons. Meditation is key but in busy lives it' seems inevitable. Than , I think about how religion plays a role in my life and I come up short.  How can I touch what can't be seen , and this is what I think ....

         Believe , Believe in the greater good , believe that we are all destined to meet ourselves at the peek of the mountain. Because , through  that journey came a lot of restless legs, sacrifice , discouragement , and lack of hope. The peek felt so unattainable , that once we reached it everything felt well worth it. Thats how life is , but it's so invisible. From , the timing, the setting , the plot of life . Right?

Or is  this just all me?

            There is this notion that having material, and physical goals is all there is too life . For example , social media, I see so many people showing off fancy cars, jewels, plastic surgery etc. And , i think wow that is a sad world to live in . Maybe financially you have it all , but it comes with a sense of loneliness , because you don't know who too trust , and in the meantime everyone  is trying to get a buck while loosing their soul.  It's non of my business thats for sure , but these are some small examples of the world that we live in .

             There was a quote in one of my favorite books called "lonely traveller" that goes, " We often connect being alone  with loneliness, so we tend to shy away from it, but sometimes it's good and necessary to be alone". - Sereno Sky

Maybe the reason for the lack of soul searching is the fear of loneliness , or not knowing where to really start in order to find oneself .

So tell me what are some things you do to find your meaning in this world ?