Deep Down

FOR A REALLY LONG TIME I'VE DEALT WITH DEPRESSION , EVEN BEFORE I HAD KIDS.

I AM UNFAMILIAR WITH Protocols when it comes too temporal cure . I don't like taking medication unless it's going to cure a cold, or an infection . I mean really who likes medicine. I just think everything is so wrong when they prescribe shit that give you suicidal thoughts or nauseousness ;How can medication that suppose too help make one feel like this?

IT'A TOTAL BS... AND ....

It's crazy , if you ask me this really makes no sense and it's my reason for not taking medication for it.

One of the greatest struggles I have is trying to cope with it , naturally .  It's not simple , dealing with life and this disease . Because , it is a disease without a cure.

There is this however, and  I've come to realize it with time that it's a mind controlling situation.

I am not a neuroscientist , or a medical doctor however , I am a person that has this. I speak solely by experience and the shit that I have to deal with on a daily basis.

Why I say it's a mind controlling disease it's because , of how much power we give our brain to let us be manipulated into a feeling of vulnerability.  It's like an unconscious thing we do and obviously if things in our life are getting chaotic well that definitely doesn't help.

People think that there is a "get over it pill" , but there isn't.  In reality all I can do is just let to pass by and find positive distractions. Do things that I love doing , it will help me think more of that than of this depression .  It's really hard to be around people when I feel this way , but I have hope of a better tomorrow.

In the end , all we have is ourselves, one life  and I hope that if your out there dealing with the same problem I am , just know your not alone.

It's sad , when I hear of people  committing suicide. It's heart breaking , this struggle is real . And , if it was addressed right and dealt with correctly a lot of people would be alive.

THIS IS HARD TO LIVE WITH...

Day 1

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