Jagged little pill



These past two days I have been feeling a little stuck. I am wanting a bit of a change, a more nature kinda atmosphere. Living in the valley really blows. There isn't much to do without driving somewhere , with the sun beaming over you. The worst part is that we are stuck with a brand new lease, that we signed back in June. We basically had to if not we were going ot pay an arm and a  leg for this place. There are just days that I want to drive off into the mountains and just stay there. I live far from my family , and have no friends. Literally. I think it's sad that I can't even make mom friends, but that's just the way it is. (besides the point)My husband may also be feeling the heat of wanting to move and it's really starting to dawn on him.

On Saturday he had a soccer game , came home we ate and took off. I told him that I had to go to the market and that we should stop by a thrift store , just to see something different. And so we found this place called "savers". For a really long time I thought it wa s a super market. ( i felt dumb , once I walked in)obviously it wasn't, this place is huge, really huge . I felt homey , like different when I walked in . I guess when you struggle and set your foot in a place where one knows OK , it's gonna be good and cheap , and even if i shop here Ill still be able to eat, then that's when life feels like life .  I was amazed by everything , the books, vinyls, old school art work, clothing , etc.  With all these thoughts in my head , and feeling  shitty , I got away into my oasis.

Obviously <  i didn't come out empty handed  . ( ill make a post on my finding on Tuesday)

But as we walked out of this place Alex and I sat in the car quiet for a while , looked at each other . The words out of his mouth were , "babe we need something more, a change"it's almost like he read my mind. We do right , I'm hating the struggle, and the lack of freedom we have . As most couples, we are hitting rock bottom with the exception of our sanity. We are holding each other by the hand in this struggle. Even though shit is rough , and we want a change , we have to weigh it out , once our lease is up and fly like the wind. Venture into hopefully a new state of calmness, serenity , and a more humble living.

With all this said , I was thinking of starting the happy project . It will be a project that talks about positive changes that Ill be making daily in order to be more in tune with myself. ALONG WITH THRIFT HAPPY GO LUCKY DAYS.

this should be interesting.