Friday

 Quiet .  

Reality

It's crazy how as a mom we are suppose to keep our composure , not cry, and just be strong . At one point we all become vulnerable to life. At least this is my case. I know I need to be well for my babies and for the most part I am. But so much has been going on , that it's almost suffocating . I hate having to make decisions that can affect us in the long run .  I just want to hide underneath my blanket and sleep, so I don't have to think. my brain loves doing a number on me. I don't want to feel this , I want to know that our situation is going to improve ... But in reality it isn't. The one thing I can't do to myself is lie to myself because than I hear  myself contradicting myself . If that makes any sense . I haven't been able to take my ideas out of the closet , I'm scared . shit ! i'm not suppose to be .
im rambling .. ill just leave it there.

good night!

Days on in.

I mean this literally. I don't have many pictures , but these are from what we have been up to.

we choose to be funky. It's genetic... 

How time has really passed us by . Zoe turned two this past weekend , and she is so miss independent . My boys are forever silly , and big. Honestly if someone was to say hey your kids are gonna grow , and that would be it , i wouldn't believe it. I love seeing them grow up .. Homeschooling them is rewarding , I get too spend a lot of time with them , and create memories that otherwise wouldn't happen if you they were in regular school.  In my opinion , it's the best way to go . The schools are changing so awkwardly , bullying is so common . Kids are socializing with other agendas , or so it seems. Not all schools are bad , I have seen some that still fall in the "good " scenario.  But as far as choice this has been mine. 

Honestly, I love it , and even though we are loaded with work, it's them being home with me , makes them feel safe .

Dia De Los Muertos

We actually passed the date for the day of the dead . It begins the day after halloween , through the second of November. It was awesome, the kids really enjoyed themselves , this year was a bit different . We attended really early so the kids can do crafts and enjoy the goodies, the made dream catchers , sugar skulls , painted skull pictures and cut outs .. It was fun , there wasn't as many people as there is during the night time. Some altars weren't full displayed but the ones we saw  were amazing.  Every year we come with the purpose of getting my kids in tune with our roots, and to help them understand death and what it means to us . It's scary but it's real, and they get it ..or so they do a little bit. But they love this event, and thats all that matters. Happy Day of the dead....

#yogaeveryday

I don't know anyone who hasn't heard of yoga. It's a universal movement that helps heal the soul. I know that once I get my yoga teaching certification  I can help make a change . Help people  feel and look good . I've been doing yoga for about 8 years, so Im sorta new . It was off and on . But I start feeling the effects when I don't get on my mat , your body starts feeling anxiety, stressed. No , seriously it's that powerful, it's like any other physical activity . Exercise is the same way , but after hurting my new running , i cooled it . I still miss the gym but not the knee pain. See this is where yoga comes in , after injuring my knee I thought that was it, no more exercise no more nothing. After weeks of Ice packs , heat therapy blah! the pain reduced but the cracking didn't . I slowly began a yoga regiment , and here I am months later with no know problems , and until this point things have been great.  Yoga is explained by some yogis that it is about being here , centering the universe in our mind so that we can live to be .. It's not a cat cow pose , or a headstand it's about self evolution. Meditation is so good for our state of minds in my opinion . It grounds  us !  It's always important to be one with earth, and truly create calmness with in ourselves. Why ? There is just so much going on these days . There just more bad than good. But we can't change everything , just ourselves .

Alrighty well Im off to get things going ,start off my day..

I'll be at the day of the dead festival. Im pretty stoked
 NAMASTE
 

FRIIIIDAY !!

FOR A HOME SCHOOL MOTHER IT MEANS A MINI BREAK , TO GET THINGS BACK TO NORMAL SIT BACK AND RELAX. HEY IT'S ALL GOOD TO HAVE SOME ME TIME.. YEAH EVERY NOW AND THEN IT'S COOL.. I REALLY ENJOY THIS TIME WITH MY KIDS , I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT ONCE THEY GROW THINGS SHIFT.. SO FRIDAYS ARE FILLED WITH OUTINGS AND FUN AND JUST ENJOYMENT. NO, NOTHING IS PERFECT BUT ENJOYMENT IS .. WAIT I DON'T THINK THAT WAS A WORD. EH ! IT'S FRIDAY SO MISTAKES ARE OK .. THIS WEEK HAS BEEN A BIT WILD , BUT FULL OF LEARNING .. 

WHEN WE HOME SCHOOL THINGS AREN'T EASY .. MAN IT' A ROLLER COASTER , I MEAN THAT LITERALLY ..BUT  IN MY MIND I'M LIKE WELL TH ATS ACTUALLY WITH EVERYTHING , AM I WRONG ? 

WHATS THE BEST THING ABOUT HOMESCHOOLING , EVERYTHING  WE SET THE TERMS OBVIOUSLY THE WORK IS PROVIDED THROUGH EDUCATORS , AND WE CAN WORK AT THEIR PACE .. AS MUCH AS THEY GIVE US OF WORK , I STILL PRINT OUT THINGS ON LINE SO THAT THERE COULD ALWAYS BE SOMETHING TO WORK ON....

I'M PRETTY STOKED ABOUT THIS WEEKEND WE ARE GOING TO THE DIA DE LOS MUERTOS EVENT IN A CITY NEAR BY .. I'LL POST PHOTOS .. AND MAYBE THE AQUARIUM ON SUNDAY AS A FAMILY OUTING.. SO ALRIGHT YOU GUYS HAVE A TOTALLY BLESSED DAY AND WEEKEND .

" LIFE IS GOOD IS WHAT WE MAKE OF IT THAT MAKES IT AMAZING"

-YESS

Yoga and Things

I don't know how it is that I always forget to blog it out . In my head i'm like well this  and this and then I'm already to go  and i get really busy and then thats it , i think i was about to do it and i forget . I have been meaning to come back it's just that so much has been going on lately and school, etc. You guys get it it's life right..

I have however been really up and up with more yoga , it really does make a whole difference in my life. It's so calming , and your just in the moment . I've had my kids all worked up on it and let me tell you kids are natural born yogis , it's the most awesome thing too see. Wish they offered it as an elective for my oldest , but otherwise it's been all good.

Haven turned eight this past Monday and it was a bittersweet day for me, because he's grown up so quick and at the same time I have wondered about where dud the time go .ah! Actually today is my middle child birthday he turns five, he did however make sure to tell me that he wants a big chocolate cake with an xbox control .... hmmm ! hahahah , will see. it's going to be a good day ...birthdays are always fun ..

In other news homeschooling has it's good and its ok moments ..but,  I love that I have my babies near me all day , because one day they will grow up to be adults and do there thing. Sooooooo....

Salud to an awesome Wed. and homeschooling .

What we've been up too!!!

  Today was full of everything ..High and low emotions , and overwhelming findings . Not everything is perfect when we homeschool. Everyday I learn something new from the boys and my daughter.. I enjoy doing what I do , and I rather deal with my children's struggles the have some teacher point them out.  I know it sounds a bit , how do you say the word unconventional to say the least , but i feel that it's whats best... Homeschooling isn't for everyone I'll tell you that but anyone can make it work if they really want too. Where there is a will there is a way.  

In all honesty I am not a fan of the public school system ... Growing up I had so shitty teachers , and guess what I struggled with math so much that as i think of it how in the world did i graduate with that being my worst subject.. i will never know . and many the bullying was worst , i just never turned to my mother to tell her , i lacked that trust and feared what she say...

What many parents and teachers to know is that bullying comes in all kinds of forms and it never goes away , and if parents or teachers are involved it makes things that much worst.. Yeah we can say let them stand for themselves , yeah that's the problem children for the most part a innocent and mean no harm , it's others (kids ) that teach them to create themselves and mold there sense of living for survival . This is common , man do I hear sad stories all the time and the stories are what based on bullying .. There are bullying movements , and this that and the other but as far as I know they don't work .. I rather have my children by me than away .. i know i can't always hover over them or protect them , but while i can I will ... It's not to say that they don't interact with other kids  they do at different settings , the park , church , stores. So  in that aspect I 'm fine .... It's just the bullying that I worry about and the fact that also this generation seems way to ahead of themselves if you know what i mean... all in all , it's been on crazy day We closed out school doing yoga .Now, On to a new chapter in our book of homeschool...

peace-yess

Still...........

Weekend wrap up!

              Woke up this morning back into my crazy ass morning routine aka just waking up for nothing, and man was it a busy weekend(full of  good , bad and the ugly) ...  I'm not use to getting up early in the morning on a Saturday  like 4 am ..... just to get my hustle on ... but this Saturday i did .. and guess what i made some money . Every 6 months up in association where my brother lives they have a yearly community yard sale , and well since i moved near by i was part of it .. it was cool selling my junk for a quarter , i mean it's change that we need when we pay something anyway so i didn't mind selling my clothes a fridge (no that one went for more than a quarter) hahah bikes , etc. And all I can say it was fun and inspiring , well because I've never had aspired to owning a home , and that whole bit but there are just so many opportunities when owning a home , that I have made it my mission to save to get one one day . I thought how cool is this selling shit i don't need ... you know that saying " someones trash is another persons treasure", it was a cool little family event and it made my Saturday fly... there was a couple other incidents that weren't good at the end .. which was a bummer.............

in every family we have issues and disagreements , but when is enough is enough ... at some point after the yard sale i felt shitty .. i know what a quick way too kill the moment and change the tune , but in all honesty I'm still feeling the effects.... it's some hurtful shit !!

Why are there and why do fucked up people exist in ones family??? like why ?? can't that be left out for the world to be that way .... this idea of family unity ,to me is only momentarily , because there is always that person in the family who thinks they are better than you and everyone  in many ways. Or ones that don't allow you to speak because your rhetoric is not good enough . quite frankly it wouldn't matter had this person meant shit too me , but maybe i m shit too them and that's why they treat me as such .. there are other things also , but i guess the best thing too do is too stay away ..steer clear of the drama.  Ugh ! i hate talking or even bringing things like these up , but this is the only outlet that doesn't judge me .  sorry i just had too somewhat vent ...

In other news , Sunday was full of tacos and lots and lots of football. The colts lost and  in my opinion its the coaching staffs fault. How??  the offense and defense have a coach, so do special teams etc. And when a quarter back is being hit , sacked  over and over and there is no protection for him than there is where the problem lys .... The quarterback does what the coach says , and if there is a way to move out of the pocket to and make a pass to a receiver that will be successful and also not get hit why not do so , but my QB Andrew Luck has been staying in the pocket , and i am assuming it's the coaches call .... but man they are grilling us out in the field , the jaguars are suppose to be one of the worst teams in the league and yet we looked like a bunch of rookies... i don't know but my heart was broken this weekend...I'm still trying to wrap my head around it .. alright , alright back to doing laundry before my children wake up .. and going to get some water and other little things ..

peace-

yess

Hanging in there....

It's honestly been the craziest two days , my brain is on a scatter trip .. in my life i have only felt like this a handful of times.. nothing crazy before ,but not this time...it was bad , i couldn't grasp my routine .. like there was a moment where i felt lost , and it wasn't till the end of the day that i was able to get a hold of myself ..literally , maybe because our school day was ending or somehow i regained my energy and focus, I'm not even sure ... but in the end it all worked out .. and I'm not driving myself crazy ... i feel a bit more calm just waking up at this time is no help. everyday I'm up at 3-4 am with my brain at ease...im having mental fights like whyyyyyyy!! i just want to sleeeeep!!! i mean because i will feel it later...and to top it off i have job interview friday , and that makes me nervous, but hopeful ... so i have to get my everything together and get it going!!! ahhhh! yeah I'm feeling the heat ..........however i will the you this ..
homeschooling has it's perks and loopholes, and it takes time to adjust too. its totally different from the public school system .. i prefer (homeschool) over public school. in a lot of ways it's better, see most teachers aren't pay a great deal , and because the aren't i feel like they just kind of give up and just teach to teach ... Not all , but think of it there is no passion or heart in some cases..The reason i even mention something like this is because  i experienced it. And it's really sad and understandable , if that makes any sense . My kids should enjoy learning. Not feel icky when they wake up too go to school only to find out the teacher is always screaming at him or he's being bullied and the teachers disregard those situations..(this shietttt aint cool)  so, instead of making a fuss at the school i take matters into my own hands , and here we are now ..(enough of that )

Overall the day was good , the science lesson was awesome   we had circle time and danced away our day ... thanks too youtube for having all kinds of kiddy songs too dance too that even my one year old joins the fun. ha! back to  another day of schedules and lesson planning ....

peace-

zoe in serious thought while haven and aiden get ready for the camera (kodak moment )