It's crazy how as a mom we are suppose to keep our composure , not cry, and just be strong . At one point we all become vulnerable to life. At least this is my case. I know I need to be well for my babies and for the most part I am. But so much has been going on , that it's almost suffocating . I hate having to make decisions that can affect us in the long run . I just want to hide underneath my blanket and sleep, so I don't have to think. my brain loves doing a number on me. I don't want to feel this , I want to know that our situation is going to improve ... But in reality it isn't. The one thing I can't do to myself is lie to myself because than I hear myself contradicting myself . If that makes any sense . I haven't been able to take my ideas out of the closet , I'm scared . shit ! i'm not suppose to be .
im rambling .. ill just leave it there.
good night!
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