the moon. & everything else

The blood moon happened , and I wasn't able to observe all its beauty , because I was in the house drinking kamboucha and vaping . On top of that a lot other places it was clear but not so much here where I live .

It's  a time for transition and change ... I get the feeling that every full moon  It's just going to get better , Im crossing my fingers for the next full moon. Lets just so how much I can wait.. ( i know i am so impatient).

On another note I am trying to compile a list of books to read for this 2019.  I want to start  a 5 books a month list and journal  it as I go .

On my list , well Ill just wait for that ..


I have to report that I have been feeling a lot better than I had before , it sucked before because of the situation that I was in . However , things are looking up slowly and surely .

A small change is coming again , but Ill try to talk about that later.

Mentally , I could be better. I say that because shit gets all fucked up and I somehow can't explain it.

Nothing is perfect , and I like it that way .
It only goes to show me one strength at a time without me rushing to work on my self mess all at once.
I do want to tell you a little short story about something I heard regarding me , and how fucked up it can be when your own family finds it funny too call someone crazy , without thinking if that is clinically true. As a disclaimer , crazy can be almost anything , but some people just have so much malicious intent  that they feed off this intent. If that makes any sense .

After Christmas Eve, I was told that this older sibling believes that I have mental issues and that I need medication. Keep in mod she also has told me that her sons girlfriends has mental issues as well . I came to believe that just because someone knows how to have fun , sing, dance and drink a bit doesn't make them crazy.  Maybe crazy happy. As the story stops here , when fingers are pointed to others remember this karma works it's way around.

Nevertheless, for very small minded people crazy is such a loose term. With either no to small significance about the word and of course without any medical reference.

I get how talking about others makes you happy, but that isn't a topic of conversation for me  because i have a very busy life  and the fact that I had too in a small way clear the air is mind boggling, and BORIIIIINNNNG!...

Good Night ,
y.

p.s. sorry for the typos