Kiddie : letting him go

The time is getting close and i am so dreading it. Haven starts school in Sept. and I am not sure how to feel about . Its a bittersweet feeling, I have been home with him since he was born  and yet the idea about being away from him isn't sinking in. Honestly, if it was up to me I'd have him home schooled but I am thinking that isn't fair .. or is it?

It's been bugging me since he turned four last October, and it still is. How does one choose a great school for young children , will the teachers actually care..I'm stuck between a needle and a hay stack(its like why) a lot of moms that I have talked too are beyond happy that their children are starting school, sadly i don't .

The hardest part is letting him go is not being able to watch him, and that is still no a viable reason for feeling like this ...I've started doing a lot of research on schools and I've only found two great schools, they are fairly close and that is a good thing. You would think that I would be satisfied, but i am not. The very interesting thing about most of the school thing is that Haven is beyond ecstatic to start school. He reminds me everyday that he wants to go to school. Maybe he's hinting me that its time to let him go, I hope when that time does arrive , I'll let him fly solo (metaphorically speaking).

I guess that as I type this I am feeling a little more  confident about the choices that i will be facing ahead , and maybe it's not so bad....

Haven is growing up sooo fast!!!