I'm nervous//Rambles

                 I've been waiting for this moment sometime. I rooted the idea in my brain that this is what's best. That the fact that the teacher always complained about his ninja moves, and the fact that he wouldn't sit still  pulled me more to this very oblivious idea and other things that I rather not go into. Also thinking , how can I engage in his work more . And that time has come .After  a summer of long thoughts, and what ifs and a school year that began rocky, where every other third day something good will come out of his stay at school.

I'm homeschooling tomorrow . Yes ( it's so crazy)

I have all these knots in my belly , my nerves are kicking in , and I can't sleep go figure.  I'm pregnant , and I already have two boys.  One who is two and my oldest is five. No there is nothing wrong with this ....... I'm just full of nerves , anxiety ..

I did a lot of study and research way before his school years , but reality is starting to sink in deep in my brain , that I'm actually going through with it. Honestly , it's really hard to say how this will go , my only experience with home school is my online college classes.. I followed my intuition , and this is what resulted from it, my reality .

However . I am excited, after the states budget cuts where art, and music was yanked out of kids daily schedules , and with this kind of schooling he'll actually be taking both of these electives .Even though my family is against me doing it, this is what's best for him , and dad approves. Being a parent is one of the toughest things yet so rewarding. I can't imagine my life any other way , and part of parenthood  , is  making decisions that maybe others don't approve of. My philosophy is while he's enjoying learning, and is actually learning everything else seems secondary..

(his heart mask well at least that's we called it)

Off we go together Haven and I , in this journey ...