yesterday .

You know those moments , that you shuffle in bed and your mind is racing but your not sure why. And then you just keep asking yourself what is wrong with me? and you get a gut feeling about that something . I had this gut feeling and shuffling in the hours of 1 am. I don't know , but when something bad happens ,my senses kinda go wild. I'm no psychic (or at least i don't think I am ). I just couldn't get my sleep . Then later that afternoon , we hear that someone we know has died in a tragic accident. I'm in disbelief, nothing makes sense in my mind on why this happened to her ....

About six years ago I met a girl by the name Yoshiko. Everyone called her shiko, she was this very shy friend of my nephew . When we would visit she would sometimes be there .  And on two occasions I was able to hang out with her . We partied hard , laugh , and just plain hung out . She was always a party goer, yet she was very very shy and so sweet. I don't think I've ever met someone like her. On one occasion ,we went up to a get together in Moreno beach , with Alex ,Franco , Her and I . Met up with some more of my nephews friends, I eventually drank to much Jack Daniels, and started asking for Alex. We just couldn't find him. She just kept saying awwe, don't worry we'll find him , I'm right here and gave me a hug . I was explaining to her how I felt about Alex and what I've been through and she made me feel like we had been long time friends.... Yoshi was always a person who had a super positive vibe..Her Ora was so calming , that I was stunned to feel such peace when I talked to her ... In my life , Ive never met someone so humble like her .  This maybe something small compare to others who knew her. But , the truth is that when you can make an immediate and positive connection with someone whom you have hardly known. That is a sign of a very GOOD person. She always kept to herself , made us laugh without trying . She was an amazing human being. From that moment I felt like a oh hey I know you connection, and felt comfortable when I saw her after that day .

Sadly she passes away on Monday , on her way back from Vegas with a guy she was seeing , he too died. The way it all went down , just makes no sense . Like , how does someone so nice have such a disastrous accident .... It was bad , and it gives chills down my spine , literally... Here are some bits and pieces of it all.