Times

There really aren't any plans for Christmas this year . Our normal tradition is ; we get together exchange gifts , and load up on tamales . Gather around the tree hang out and talk , and just relax really. But it's unlikely this will be occurring .  I'm really trying to get something set up here  , but I'm just fooling myself , and really it's exhausting . Because personalities get in the way and really it should be a persons choice, to want , to hang out with the family(it is what it is you know) . It seems that these holidays have rushed through our fingers and ,Christmas is in two weeks . I am over whelmed by it all . It's been an interesting year and all that Iam ready for 2014.  Didn't think I've be saying this . 

On another note , I've totally been neglecting the blog because my computer is busted . The screen popped and it just doesn't work. Sadly , I am out of a computer , all I have is Instagram . The upside was that I rememberd that blogger had an app. Ha! So here I am typing on my phone which seemingly is quite uncomfortable . 

But I am here and it's all good .  

I'll be back later with more stories of happenings and a bunch of random rambles .

-yess

around my universe

I think I have forgotten about this little space in about something weeks. Im so bad at posting but when I get back in  my groove  Im in full force. ha! something I guess... well i've had my hands full lately. Im changing  things up.


 I recently was requested by a mom at my sons school  , whom by the way is in his class (this boy), if i could pick him up and take him . Because she has no one to watch over him,  they have a big family but im not sure what really is happening.  It's three days a week  and she threw in this Tuesday 20 hours a week.... the question that I pondered was whether i should speak of pay. Honestly, she didn't bring it up neither did I ... But I mean is it even appropriate?


well that's that.

On the other hand Im getting ready for the year ending so Im trying to organise bits and pieces around the house. I want the new year to start fresh, no crazy things lying around in my corners....hahahahaha...

Growing up is fun to do

theres always some kind of funny faces, camera ready poses, crayon written mirror stories going on around here. You can hear endless laughter, uberly loud non stop crying. And the words,"no it's mine" back and forth, but at the end of the day it is so worth it. The thought and the idea that my two babies keep me on my feet and give me a reason , is good enough to enjoy myself here with them. I don't know what I would do without them. Yea, my house isn't always sparkling clean , but at least I have the unconditional love of my babies. As i get the opportunity to see them grow, I'm beyond humbled to have the opportunity to be a mom. I love it and I never want it to end. Me belief is that our kids can't ever outgrow us, because they will always need us ....(so i assume).. i love being a SAHM , and yea things are a bit intense, but this is only once in a lifetime shot, our kids are only small so long , and I say why not enjoy every minute and breathing second.

I'll take endless photos if I have to .... and here are just a couple of moments...

Mondays , i ain't feeling you .

I'm not a fan of Mondays, never have and never will be . When this day comes around , all I wanna do is hide under the covers go to sleep so when I wake up , bam it's Wed. at least. But the universe doesn't work that way, man if only  I had magical powers it would be all good. Here I am with the case of the Mondays, and I have a heck of a busy day ahead of me.  My mom went out of town and she told she'd be coming today , I'm stressing it..... *sighs*. It's like she new I had things to catch up so she decided to come visit out of all days. But it's all good , but I still don't like Mondays. shit is so hectic around here, that I feel myself going crazy. I'm bad at organizing and keeping tidy without loosing it . Many moms tell me the same, that it's really hard to be all together when you have children . eh! i don't know but I'm hating this Monday...... I have to look at it and be optimistic  so at least it will fly by ...Let the day roll and the time fly , because the new time change really feels like it made the day that much longer , don't you agree?

                                              (on my monday rambles..
                                                picture off pinterest)

Day of the Dead

Day of the dead is such a huge tradition in my native  land of mexico, and here in the states(which i am very proud of). It's the  first and second day of November . Many paint their faces,  while others wear mask and wear Gothic like dresses, or resemble a skull like couple.This day brings all kinds of generations together.I love how deep this tradition is .  where we can unite to  remember our loved ones who have passed away.

Every time this year is really hard for me. Because it's this and everyday that I celebrate my grandma . I celebrate her as if she were here.But this day specifically is celebrated all over. I like to think that her spirit is here and that she knows that she is never forgotten.


 When I was nine years old my grandma died and being around her in those last moments really has somehow stayed with me . I haven't yet set  closure to the thought of her being gone and her death. Maybe , it's the fact that I have a hard time letting go of things , or its just that in my childhood years she was the only when there when I felt lonely and who never abused ME mentally .It dawns on me constantly what i went through, but I always knew that I could count on her. All in all she was amazing to me , I've heard many different stories of the hardcore Mexican grandma that we had , but my version of her  was different . In the end I can't ever view her as any less then what I remember her. There is one thing , that I am sure of , and if her death taught me something is this; that no matter what happens in your family ,always keep our loved ones close , because in any given moment they can be gone . As a grown up  , I've come to understand life a whole lot better, why people are the way that are and why we do the things that might not always seem right. But the one thing that just never goes away , no matter how grown we are, always love your  family.

 While gazing around at the day of the dead  festival, everything became so real again. Seeing these massive alters full of candles,pictures and things that they loved , it hurt to see many still mourning , because I'm mourning her death still.  Death is never easy , nothing can ever take that pain away.  AND EVEN THOUGH HER GRAVE IS SOOOOO FAR AWAY , MY WAY OF SHOWING HER HOW MUCH SHE MEANS TOO ME , IS BY GOING TO THESE FESTIVALS.



As I type this I start thinking wow, next year it will 20 years since she passed.

"i love you nana".  (i have so many things running through my head , that I can't think straight, please excuse my  scatter  brain .)

This post is a day or so late , but it's still the beginning of the month .  so with that said ," feliz dia de los muertos (happy day of the dead) 

(I forgot my camera  so here are just some of the things that kinda sum my night)



(pictures:pinterest)



WE CAME, WE SAW .

Gardens (pt.2)

these OCTOBER days.

one of my many reasons for loving the fall. leaf color changes. cloudy afternoons. endless amount of coffee, tea , and green smoothies.( just a  habit during this time of year).

City Drive ,Random Shots



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under the weather

my two little guys and I got sick.  theres been a lot of tea drinking, honey sipping and lounging most of the day .  most days are rare. we don't sit and eat at the table, instead we have found more comfort on the couch. tissues everywhere , since we all having running noses. I'm really trying to catch up on cleaning, but to tell you the truth I'm doing it in parts. The lack of energy is really getting to me. Hope is all I got going on in my head . what ? that I recover fast , that's what I'm hoping for. The last time I was so badly ill was when I was pregnant with my oldest. Which was a while , while ago. for now it's cuddles and sniffles while we get better. *cough*

Botanical Gardens (pt.1)

Birthday Bash (a couple of snaps)

my funny little guys .  by the time we were about to cut the cake they looked a bit tired and sleepy. but this was as  good as it got. to see them playing and happy was all that I needed to feel like it was all good. that is my biggest joy .. so here are some random snaps from their special day.

                                    funny poses for days . camera distration for the times being 

                 

blah!

If its not one thing it's another. Ive been crazy busy with H school. I'm on mommy work overload. On top of that , we finally had our boys infamous birthday party.  It was all so last minute , stressed up the yin yang . Feeling the heat. But, I'm glad it is over and it was a semi success. Given that It all started later then planned. Otherwise we had many laughs, great costumes and not as many photos as I liked.  It really sucked not taking many pictures. Lets see, oh yeah I had a parent teacher conference last Wednesday.(it went OK) .

And the biggest upset occurred the day of the party. my record player stopped working indefinitely. As we were about to play hot pumpkin (hot potato) which requires music, Alex and I tried turning on the record player , nothing . Re-plugged and UN plugged and reset , got nothing . Pushed dials, nothing. Moved the cord around and nothing. Man am I super bummed. It let me down and I've had it for less then a year..(total BS) . Alex, insist that we fix it , but I'm like no way I can buy a new one for what they are gonna charge right?
well ,who knows but if i do i hope it will be super cheap (crossing my fingers).

Other then that  it's all that's been happening at my end of the world.

All over the place and some

I've been so busy lately , and I haven't done much of anything. With H being at school , I somehow worry that If I do something else they can call me at any given time. So pretty much I'm focused on his school, and setting up work for him daily. I find it fun in someway since I need him to get better. I'm doing a lot of deep cleaning , and cooking more then usual, plainly it's just my everyday life.  With the Halloween party in two weeks, I am so stressed. I've searching all over the net for a fun simple party ideas. Let me tell you it isn't easy , because everything evolves scary and H isn't looking forward to anything scary anymore.  Plus , it's our families annual party . I think it's all wrapped up into one. Or wait it is (hahah). I've bought some things here and there but I keep second guessing if its just too scary of just enough ... I'm just thinking on hanging up ghost and bats , and using the colors green , black , and a hint of white .... Also incorporating games and awards and a pinata, yeah I want it to be fun ...Which it will.... That's been on my plate .And I haven't found my costume ..I want to be poison ivy so I might just make my version of her ...this is pretty much my life ...all in one. I'm excited and yet nervous...Ill  be posting a halloween party on a budget and see how that turns out .wish me luck ... what will you be for halloween?

finding a way.

I think we live in an era  where finding peace and serenity is crucial. This world is just so horrible. But as I find myself in a place where things are wild , and i have no tranquility , I'm longing for my center. I want to help my mind from thinking so much . I don't want  a perfect life , I want a peaceful one.

And while I find this , for now my inspiration is this blog called "beauty that moves". Man do I love her blog , it's so serene and still.  As I start my journey into the yoga world , I'm here focusing one day at a time.I'll be posting a ninety day yoga days ritual.

in search...

random snaps

Yoshiko

YOSHIKO AND ALEX (LONG TIME FIRENDS, WAY BEFORE ME)
MAY SHE REST AND PEACE WE LOST HER HERE ON EARTH BUT THE HEAVENS GAINED A PURE SOUL
YOU WILL BE MISSED DEARLY . RIP YOSHI ..
LOVE  FROM ALL OF US.