Religion (random)

The other day as I sat on my couch , I sat so still , this numbness ran through my body . It was just something i couldn't explain, so I'm going to try to do so here.
There is no such way to say this so i will blurt it out, "what is my religion"??
Ever since becoming a convert (LDS) church , I have become so confused it's eating my brain alive. It's like I'm in a time warp and I have no escape.  Really i don't understand why, because when I converted  I was totallyy fine with everything and accepted things that maybe, i should have second guessed... as a convert , you have certain customs that still stick with you from the old religion.(ughh)  This all sounds confusing, I have no point and I feel like I am falling apart spiritually, and it sucks.. I have prayed and then I start thinking ...and thinking (I'm drained)...

I want to just belong to a place where I feel completely comfortable and nothing can bother me , but I'm not..

I have narrowed down my thoughts , well the pros and cons. And to be fair , they even out .............. SO I'm back at zero..

This almost makes me feel shallow, and I have no Idea what to do ( sighs )..should I just follow my heart? (maybe ) 

This is crazy

xo
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