Kiddie : letting him go

The time is getting close and i am so dreading it. Haven starts school in Sept. and I am not sure how to feel about . Its a bittersweet feeling, I have been home with him since he was born  and yet the idea about being away from him isn't sinking in. Honestly, if it was up to me I'd have him home schooled but I am thinking that isn't fair .. or is it?

It's been bugging me since he turned four last October, and it still is. How does one choose a great school for young children , will the teachers actually care..I'm stuck between a needle and a hay stack(its like why) a lot of moms that I have talked too are beyond happy that their children are starting school, sadly i don't .

The hardest part is letting him go is not being able to watch him, and that is still no a viable reason for feeling like this ...I've started doing a lot of research on schools and I've only found two great schools, they are fairly close and that is a good thing. You would think that I would be satisfied, but i am not. The very interesting thing about most of the school thing is that Haven is beyond ecstatic to start school. He reminds me everyday that he wants to go to school. Maybe he's hinting me that its time to let him go, I hope when that time does arrive , I'll let him fly solo (metaphorically speaking).

I guess that as I type this I am feeling a little more  confident about the choices that i will be facing ahead , and maybe it's not so bad....

Haven is growing up sooo fast!!!

Recent Dillema

Life gives us opportunity to live life and be in tune wit ourselves, besides the fact that we make friends along the way ...

We learn to forgive but not forget and move past it.. (well that's the way that i am)
Somethings are just not meant to happen or stay that way, my thought (solely)

When you think someone is  your friend and you come to find out that they talk and criticize you and you confront them and they lie  (story of my life, for making them feel important)

That happened to me recently and after much thought , there is no point in having people like that in our lives (or in my life so to speak)
People are cowards they maliciously do things that know are no good and continue, without regard about others.

A friendship needs to be loyal , sincere and full of honesty. The way i am, I can't handle  people who are careless , phony , superficial, and big mouths.. I mean who does, its not a way to live....

There are good people out there , the bad thing is that they are hard to find ...............

But all in all , life is about moving on and living,  People come in and out of our lives for a good reason , and that i won't fight ....

I love the feeling of venting and releasing, its part of life..
                       so, asta' la vista!

Past On

In the generations past, we have seen a lot of great rock stars. They come and go , make a hit disappear and then return (its the circle of life right?)  I've gained love and respect for such great musician's , music is love to the soul. No matter how or whats going on in the world music has that  power,to change our lives . The expression that comes solely is inspiration in itself.... Its the drum beats, the bass sounds, the vocals , its all in one. And in decades past I want to remember, just some of these amazing musicians that set the tone in my life...

foo fighters, nirvana,pearl jam, deftones,sublime, bob marley,sex pistols,red hot chilli peppers,bjork,fiona, alanis morisette,incubus, blink 182,portishead,the strokes, the beatles,the kills, the black keys, carlos santana,lauryn hill, the fugees, wu-tang, quasimoto, talib kewli, mos def, the roots, and so many more..

I think you get the picture...

music will just keep evolving!!!!

Inclination: the kills

for as long as I can remember, I fell in love with the kills in 2010..  Their indie feel and sound makes them so addicting and loving..... They carry a spunk that most new popular bands lack this is what makes them so loving and unique.. Their style is rugged , mistyical and one of kind.. Take a listen and tell me what you think..

Thoughts : Things and Stuff

I get so caught up on things going on around here , that I've forgotten a little bit about my blog. I've change a couple things lately and I'm sure humbled by them. I've found a way to set myself back into spiritualism and IAM so happy... I'm lacking a little here and there , it's really how I am and maybe it's cause I don't take myself to seriously . That's always a good thing , I want to feel alive and live life. So much is going on and I'm just thankful for life and being able to see
The sunrise everyday ..ok so here are a little of what I've been up to.. Pictures for days literally .. Thanks Instagram !!(Random)

Saturday : Thoughts

I can't even remeber the last time that I was on here, gosh it was that long . So much has been going on , and im really happy to be back on the blogosphere.

Music Spotlight

Earlier today I somehow dug in my bag and pulled out this AAA magazine .. Yeah , no biggie nothing special ( but to my surprise ) in the mid section was a vinyl edition . It talks about how cool record stores are and of course amoeba was the topic choice for the article ... As I kept reading , it named a few awesome little record stores around town.. And guess who made the top four ? Fingerprints !! Yes, it was there and I am so proud to say ( that they deserve to be part if that top four) My experience when I've visited is ,always good it's almost like my safe .the environment is just so welcoming.No lie its that amazing .. It's an indie based place and a hole in the wall , that always keeps me wanting more.. They have art , music memorabilia , vinyl, books ., just about anything a music junkie likes and wants. As a Long Beach Native , I salute you "FINGERPRINTS" for being so RAD...

This happened

Yesterday was a very interesting day, so that's what I call interesting . Ok so my kids have so many toys like enough to build a day care center .. ( obsession I think ) so anyways we have these abc sponge floor mats there like 27 pieces in all. I had them stash away because man do they make such a mess. I always refuse to take them down for the same reason , they get in all over the place and are always in my walking space .( kids love to put things everywhere and anywhere ) well turns out that they came in handy yesterday . Haven has this space , jimmy neutron obsession and he decided that we where going on our space ship and we were Aliens of course ..( of course wearing the cut outs on our heads and neck ) And this is what it looked like in our space ship .... Hahahaha I had a laugh at my hideous smurk ! Xo-yess

Changes maybe or not?

I'm in the hunt for where I want this blog to go. The direction on which I can have a mere go to focus ... I like fashion , art , music , and literally random stuff . I think I'll just take it by what I am feeling .. I've seen a lot of super cool fashion blogs and makeup sites aka vblogs.. And I love reading about it as much as I wish I could spend endless amount of dollars on clothing .... But in some way maybe as bored as I might get ill take a shot at it in the future .. For now ill keep looking for an alpha rhythm and ill keep entertaining you with shit that I am always thinking ... Xo-yes

Solitude

Sometimes, I'm so bored with certain things , so easily that I just feel like yanking out my locks and wishing i wasn't so bored.. (makes sense)

This is the story of my life every other day , and sometimes i see my self wishing that I had done better and done something with this life of mine...I don't regret anything occurring now, its more like i wish I had something to show for it. I know of people that are content with working in a factory for long hours, that doesn't do it for me to say the least.. The one thing that does inspire me  at times is my solitude and my idea of being inspired.  I'm not sure why I like being by myself.. maybe it's a weird way to be or maybe I just like my own space. from time to time i do wish i had a couple of good sophisticated friends, maybe that would take me out of this mind set , but what can i do , it's just who I am . I think a lot ninety-seven percent of the time , and the other three percent is just my very next step before thinking... i think I'm just afraid to fail at something that everyone tells me has no future, but to me it does , you capture thoughts , fragments of the facial features, moments, life... And i might not make a fortune but I will be content and satisfy.......

 and maybe part of that solitude is just that which is inspired... This blog is  part of my solitude and freedom to be . It has no boundaries or limits, and to be quite frankly I love that..

xo-yess

Been a Minute

I recently walked away from my blog due to computer problems and iPhone interruptions. I recently restarted my whole phone , it was so slow , and I couldn't do much on it !! So here I am after fixing all my tech dilemmas.
I haven't been up too much ( going places I mean) , I have. Even on my Instagram the most and here are some pictures to show just what I have been up too. Exercising , ad reading! Nothing major I will be back in a bit .....