Picks:Beauty Must haves

I l0ve all these products by far .. It's good being a women /just wanted to throw i
That in/
There is so much out there and once my hair grows in i'll start posting up videos , for now I'll just do this .. Here they go... ( what's your favorite beauty product ?
PONDS
MAC
LOREAL
MAYBELINE
BURT'S BEE
ORGANIX
ESSIE

Hair:short problems

I discovered how dreadful it is to have short hair again... After the haircut (that I gave myself) I'm developing this feeling of awkwardness .. ( I'll manage ,I hope) but in the event, where I gaze at my phone and see so many people with beautiful long hair (I reminisce ) . Then again I did this to myself for over processing it .the good this is that it grows so that's something to look forward too. As for my current dilemma ,it's so hard to style..( super drag ) .its just so boring!! So I considered buying extensions (face in shock)yes that awful phony stuff you put in the hair to look fabulous ( beauty miracles , I tell you) .This is how it went. I go up to the booth gaze and touch the samples they have hanging and I'm thinking to myself " this feels way to soft and thin to add to my hair .." I laugh at myself and turn away , as I'm walking away the hair consultant comes after me and convinces me to try it on . By the way her name is so beautiful (sage) . We walk over and she puts on this hair piece called "halo "...
She flips it that way , this way and even curls it and blends into my short thick hair. I'm so in awe, because it honestly looks so so pretty . but I wondered why am I about to spend money on hair?? When I can wait and let mines grow .. ( seems reasonable thinking ) I go on and ask the girl how much for it , and she drops it on me 265.00 dollars and up with no warranty ... ( my jaw drops) ..I take it off , say thank you and walk away ( I couldn't believe it) . Wow! Beauty cost a lot ,but that was too much for me .. And as much as I'll nag on here , my hair will grow and I would have saved that money .. ( for sure) . As for dying my hair , I made a 300 dollar bet that I wouldn't dye my hair this whole year ..(easy money right ?)the thought of no change kills me , but I'll just have to wait and see .... FYI short hair is ok for those who love it , but for this gal , I had to do it to remove all the damaged parts.. It's a renewing project , so to speak , searching for that inner optimism so I won't drive myself crazy !!
P.s.s. hair ticking clock!! Please hurry , this picture was taken I think on dec 2012 the beginning!!

Currently

Things I am obsessing over: This whole Russia meteor that just happened , The atmosphere, vinyl music

I am lacking: On my reading ( the truth is I haven't picked up a good book lately , I'm working on it), keeping in touch with friends , painting

Loving: the color red, galaxy leggings , and vintage finds , my cannon (T3), Starbucks on any given day!!!


In the future: I'm just living day to day

Random gibberish , and just things that Are on my mind lately .

Xo-yess

Mainly: Music

After watching the Grammys last week I was in awe , so much good music and very Inspirational to say the least..


. I say this because , when MySpace was famous and everyone wanted to be heard (musicians) that was the place to kind of start.
The black keys was that band that I heard and thought , wow this is a really dope band . And that was decades ago ( merely exaggerating ) but it seems like it.. And after seeing the same band become so big and create some music that sticks with you , I became a fan.... Lonely boy is the jam, and I have become a great believer that dreams come true ... it's cool to sit here and reflect on something so rad , and say I was there from the beginning...
And for this is I ::Salute you::: ( the black keys )

Oscar: My Quick Picks

Best Picture: Lincoln

Actor in a Leading Role: Bradley Cooper (this would be so badass)

Animated Feature Film: Frankenweenie

Film Editing: Silver Linings Playbook

Writing in origininal screen play
 Django

I would love these films to win : Django, Lincoln, Silver Linings Playbook, Zero Dark Thirty

For the heck of it!! Oscar predictions

My Valentines

Wow! It was short an sassy and simple. It couldn't be more
Perfect , and unexpected . in the end I grubbed madly on chocolates ( gaining weight hahha)Had lunch at TGI Fridays , love that place .. and enjoying my Lillie bunch !! Thanks to my babies Orion and Haven, Alex for being amazing !

Friend: I lost a Dear one(short story)

           Growing up from city to city is very difficult, it takes a toll on a child's life and in the same way it creates (instability, that's just my opinion ) speaking from experience. Well , when I moved from Inglewood , to Long Beach I can recall crying and hating everything, because I had to move .. I lost all my little friends a good friend of mine who had the same name , had just moved away to New York so it all sucked. It was awful timing (literally) ..I don't think i can get or will ever get over the day we moved. But  anyway, when I came to Long Beach, I went to a very close elementary school called (Webster). And It was like being in a foreign country , no one talked to me and well  I was kinda of a tomboy.and most of the girls were (bullies)but I survived. Somehow,  it worked out and I started making friends , talked to mostly boys and that was that. Through that friendship I met the one person that was always there for me (from the time we were kids all the into our adulthood),who always made me laugh (Gustavo). And as we grew older we talked on occasions and even hung out. He was the perfect friend an Aries and a very down to earth person. Always brutally honest , but he had his moments. And in a bad moment in my life I pushed him away , and now he's moved so far , it makes me sad....
 Where ever he is , I will forever thank him for being a great person to me!  Later Buddy , till we meet again..........
p.s.s have you ever lost a friend that you couldn't find?

Weekend: wrap up(mini trip)

So this weekend was super cool, full of surprises and unexpected events... I'll let the photos do the talking ! FYI : this was a mini trip to Newport it was gorgeous !!

Religion (random)

The other day as I sat on my couch , I sat so still , this numbness ran through my body . It was just something i couldn't explain, so I'm going to try to do so here.
There is no such way to say this so i will blurt it out, "what is my religion"??
Ever since becoming a convert (LDS) church , I have become so confused it's eating my brain alive. It's like I'm in a time warp and I have no escape.  Really i don't understand why, because when I converted  I was totallyy fine with everything and accepted things that maybe, i should have second guessed... as a convert , you have certain customs that still stick with you from the old religion.(ughh)  This all sounds confusing, I have no point and I feel like I am falling apart spiritually, and it sucks.. I have prayed and then I start thinking ...and thinking (I'm drained)...

I want to just belong to a place where I feel completely comfortable and nothing can bother me , but I'm not..

I have narrowed down my thoughts , well the pros and cons. And to be fair , they even out .............. SO I'm back at zero..

This almost makes me feel shallow, and I have no Idea what to do ( sighs )..should I just follow my heart? (maybe ) 

This is crazy

xo
yesss

Valentines Day: Ideas

With this Day, Full of love ahead of us, i thought I'd make a collage of gifts for her and him. The collage represents, what I'm thinking on getting Alex and what most girls would want, obviously with roses ,and a box of chocolates. I'm not into roses, I'm not sure why , but a tulip or Lillie does it for me.

Anticipation

There has been so much going on , that I forgot about my blog
The good thing is that I am back !!
Let me give you a little insight about what's been happening. First off I started a new fitness regime called " insanity ". Man is that workout hard . It's satisfying at the same time and I am so happy I'm feeling a lot more happier , calm and intune , I've been also focusing more on a healthy us.. I always thought that buying organic is a crash course in my wallet , but man will I tell you that I can't even tell the difference in my spending , cooking more healthy and from scratch . I finally mastered making French bread .. But now I'm taking on the task of making wheat bread ( wish me luck ).Reading a lot more , writing , painting, and obsessing over vinyls ... And other things that will come later !! I got to go , I can't find my computer charger, so typing on my phone sucks .. Plus I have so many pictures I want to share from my cannon .. But for now here are some pictures ! Have and amazing weekend toodles - yess